To Be A Butterfly

I just performed at Boston College.

Opened up for Ludacris.

Was pretty cool.

I'm getting more confident being on stage.

It's weird performing New York Raining without Rita.

The crowd was live as fuck.

Glad to be here.

So much to try to achieve.

My mom's health is declining.

That kinda sucks.

So hopefully I can achieve something big before she has to go.

I'd be worse than Kanye if my mother passes.

Shit's getting really real for me.

I'm in an airport bathroom.

Gotta roll.

~follow the buzzards~

New favorite song.

Everything about this song makes it a classic.
This album is amazing.
I wish some of my "critics" would take the time and try to understand my meanings.
The main critique of my psyche came from The Hardest Mixtape Ever; Muthafuckas.
I dissed Em, off the top, for an entire mixtape.
Which was hard to do.
And the mix was hard on the ears.

I get it.

Being a leader means you have to be compassionate to those who won't catch you quickly.
But I'm advancing by the second.
I guess I have to go back to...
...no going back.

Right.

Guess I gotta keep evolving.

~follow the buzzards~

Well-informed Anarchy

When you're in the light, the darkness seems feeble.
When you reach the darkness from the light, nothing else matters.
The dark side has embraced me.
But I am in the light.
So the beacons of light in the darkness (eg. MF DOOM) "chronicle" my path.

Stay righteous.
It is not a mystery how.
Believe in yourself, keeping in mind the divine deities that follow you.

Against your will.
Without your knowledge.

Only a breath away.

My writing style and delivery have evolved.
I'm proud of my new music.
I'm just not sure about how much of what you NEED (musically) being given to you.

What you want is very much in the stash.
So is what you need.

Sometimes you get what you need, in the form of something you detest.
But you've asked for this.







Subconsciously.

~follow the buzzards~

The Fight For Your Soul

I almost walked away.
I truly love my management team.
But it seemed like they didn't like my original production.
So we had a fall out.
A lot of details being left out.
But with all the compromise we both respectfully made, it was destined to reach a point.
I blame my fans.
I spoiled them.
They expect raw soul, all the time.
They don't know what they already have.
I sincerely hope they listen and take heed to my wisdom,
"as ripe as it is."
I wish everyone who samples knew the compromise of the business side.
They don't want to take your soul.
They don't want to take the soul of the people.
I was under the impression that they did.
And for that, I blame old school hip hop.
No one wants to water something down.
But sometimes they can see things about a project that we (the artist) can't.

I'm not looking forward to performing.
Nothing due to management.
I don't like to be seen.
There is a higher reason why.
I guess I have to come out of that shell.

Everyone is asking about Sonic.
I am not being censored.
Many people made a very valued point about life seem like a punchline.
I'm very upset by that.
So is management.

I can't wait for the day you find out how right I am.
When?
When.
To ask means I don't know.
Right?
My lack of knowledge of self led to a rebellion that was so hurtful, I'd hate to be me a few years ago.

I'm not mad at Jimmy.
Stop asking.
"Y'all are gossiping gothically. I can hear you. You got to be Joshin' me."
My vision is about to go under wraps again.

People can't handle where I was going.
But those who know, understand.
If the whole world was in the know, there'd be no entertainment.
AT ALL.

Accept what you have, as far as the limited knowledge you're given the opportunity to expound upon.
Don't bite my new format of blogging.
I'll know.

:-)

~follow the buzzards~

I never can say goodbye...

So to start, thanks for bearing with me. I'm gonna make this blog entry short, because I'm up later than I should be and I'm in London. But yeah. Thanks for sticking with me for so long. I'm sure I have a grip of questions to answer, and I will... just give me time.

New music coming soon. I'm very proud of it. Been working very hard. Nothing better than some soul in this electronic day and age.

New way of blogging, by the way. Expect that in the coming weeks.

Hope you guys are excited about New York Raining.

Yes, I still read the KTT forum.

Yes, I tweet.

I take pics for Instagram, but I don't curate it.

This is how my new blogging style looks.

It couldn't wait.

Whatever.

See you around...

~follow the buzzards~