Is it of God?

Of the many offers I've been getting, the most lucrative one seems to ask for more "sacrifice". I already lost my mother to the game, so I don't have much to lose. But is it of God to sacrifice anything to another mortal? 

As you (my fellow Goths/StarChasers) may know, I have been strengthening my faith in God/The Lord/Jesus. It doesn't help that StarChasin' Jason is a pain in the butt about it. But it also hurts that people want a "less woke" version of me to push to the masses. 

Is it of God? 

The way people came down on me for being high with Sha-leik let me FURTHER know that no one is ready for my rockstar lifestyle. I guess y'all just want the best of/from/for me. That's beautiful. But I was me before I met you. Nevertheless, I question whether my ways were of God, despite fearing God in all that I did. 

Mind you, this was almost 20 years ago. I've outgrown doing certain things, I've grown out of certain friendships. I still have a hunger for music, though. I just want to NOT have to compete. Like, I don't want to make a record to "son" "these lil niggas". I was once a "lil nigga" on the come-up, so I get their hunger. 

I'm just vibing this morning to the sounds of birds and Joe Biden. 

Is it of God? 

#beseated