I confessed to having a same sex encounter on "Boy Who Played With Barbie". My reason was to escape The Will of God. I felt God brought me to and in a situation I couldn't get out of, and homosexuality was the only way out. I was wrong, and I spent 10+ years feeling fucked up because of it. Just know that Harlem was on my mind the whole time. I wanted to be strong enough to take the pain of the streets AND the game.
Harlem hasn't DIRECTLY denounced me. In fact, they've been VERY supportive. I think Harlem knows I'm a rape victim, and on some sick shit, are probably proud of me for dominating a man (I beat; he didn't beat). They probably just don't know what to make of me... again.
Well, Harlem. As I'm sure you know, I'm anti-DownLow. So if ever I'm about to get intimate with a woman, I make sure she knows that I tapped into the alternative lifestyle as an experiment, and that I am honored by her presence. I gotta watch the tears when they try to roll, because... it's bad enough I have to explain why I am so sexually awkward (as a Scorpio). Don't want the bitch calling me soft because I'm being welcomed into her palace.
Brothers, homosexuality is ever-present and an entire lifestyle. If you should make it out (alive) and find the right woman, BE HONEST WITH HER. Not only does it clear your karma, SHE WILL KNOW.
Fuck it, Harlem. Get a 6-pack of Heineken and thank me when she's done.
Now Harlem, my distance from you doesn't not come from shame. It comes from a lack of resources. It costs BREAD to get a round-trip ticket to NYC from LAX. I have places to stay, but Mom's side of the family (The Moorers) don't live in NYC anymore! Somehow I'd have to get to where they are (still on the East Coast, but...), and still be back to the city in time to get involved with #thelife. Shouts to STRAY DOGS (The New NY Crew!!! shouts to Lou, Shifty, Squid, Rama and anyone I may have forgotten). Enjetic I see you! CYoung!!!
I miss NYC. I'm just FLOATIN' in Cali!!!
#phenomenal
