Look who's talking...

It appears as though a *drKiwi* wants to make their way back into my life. After we parted ways in 2019, I chose to kick my addiction to *drKiwi* cold turkey. #thadoc had company, as far as controlled substances I was abusing. I was forced to leave *drKiwi*'s house, and figure out what to do with all my talent and love. I didn't want to argue anymore. We had our moments. She (*drKiwi*) knows the level I'm working on. I know her depth. I know I did some things to burn our relationship. I just packed up and moved on.

This relationship started the #Villain movement. Songs about self-inflicted heartbreak, justice, revenge, clearly love... all to the background of "the only boy who could ever reach me", Mr. Curtis "Preacherman" Mayfield. 

Watchya say now?!

I'm not all that sure I can handle *drKiwi*. She's a hot head, has a life of her own, and... all I can do is support her through music and journalism/blogging. Obviously (lol hint) I have other moves I can make. I just play by the book I wrote.

Watchya say now?!

I do get HELLA lonely tho. I kinda have a bitter taste in my mouth, as far as dating StarChasers. Or maybe I need to hold out for Tori...

Watchya say now?!

lol I'll come back to this thought later.

But still. Welcome back, *drKiwi*. Let's have coffee and Fig Newtons some time...

#cHamEra...

Candidates

 

Gotta admit, this entry is well thought out. Considering there are many *drKiwi*s out there. Many of which are doing things to be viewed as a *drKiwi*. Of the many, a few want reason to have smoke with me, considering how close we've gotten.

Consider it an honor to be*drKiwi*, because I have to be creative to state my grievance with you.

Well, to one *drKiwi*, I figured you're out being a (Stray) Dog, so no cross hairs are on you. I guess I got spoiled by talking to you every day. I only have the best wishes for you.

To YOU, *drKiwi*, everything I said to you came to fruition. YOU STILL want to mess around with*drKiwi* and gamble with the fortune you built for yourself. My *Kiwi*... You built A FORTUNE. NO *KIWI* CAN SAY THEY DID THAT! Leave that little*drKiwi* alone and get your money!!!

*drKiwi*, it's been 10 years since you passed. This year makes 11. It's been hard, no doubt. But you're in my dreams and nightmares. You softened me. You toughened me up. I thank you. I resent you. I can feel you. I miss you.

#KingKiwi is doing just fine in his dormitory. I know he's working hard and has a lot of people pressuring him to be more or less of himself, so I leave him alone. Leave it to *drKiwi* to debunk my theory of being "connected" to a higher resource. Because I don't want to argue with ANYONE, let alone *drKiwi*, I just take the blows and collect my evidence of the contrary in silence.

I already know, and have already proved, so it's on you, *drKiwi s*!!!!

~~Charles Hamilton~~

***beep***

Confessions of silence.

I've made it clear that *drKiwi* is my #opp. I don't like this person, this person violated, and they think I can be bought. Listen, family. I'm not driven by money. It's a requirement to live, but I already know how life is with it.

And that's where I start this entry.

I often think to myself that I could've done more with my money (on Interscope). But then it hits: outside of whatever I could've invested in, I did RIGHT with my money. The apartment in El Barrio was for my peoples who were struggling (Nate and Kurt were homeless, Sha had housing issues, etc.), and the house upstate was for my creative a-alikes (Halo, Sciryl, Kesed, etc.). 

It worked out until it didn't.

If I end up in the money again, I plan to try to do the same thing. So long as it's a permanent living situation for me. 

Back to *drKiwi*. Real artists don't like you, women are using you for your money/influence, your label exposed you as corny... I'm not your scapegoat. In fact, your demise is the slightest bit of karma. You tried to break me. Then tried to emulate! The nerve! 

So yeah, *drKiwi*. Don't text me. I dare you to call me out for this.

As far as Kiwi herself, she's become a notebook for my mind.

Go ahead. Ask her who *drKiwi* is in this context.

I dare you.

#cHamEra

The ugly truth/the beautiful Deception

At 649, the first halfway house I was in (2022), I produced and recorded "A Carver's Theme". I sampled Chloe Bailey's cover of "Footloose" for Pepsi. As the song's cover photo, I chose a picture of her sister, Halle Bailey as Ariel ("The Little Mermaid"). 

The song I sampled wasn't Chloe's best. As organic as she is and can be, I felt the cover was TOO synthy and electronic for her. Alas, she had an opportunity to make money and gain mainstream exposure, so I'm not mad at her. As far as Halle, the picture wasn't flattering, but it was a remnant of a historical role she was blessed to have the opportunity to play.

The point of the song ("A Carver's Theme") is and was, i would've carved my veins out should I have had to make such creative sacrifices. Is Chloe talented? Yes! Is Halle ugly? No! But sometimes in this business, you have to take losses in order to win big.

Those *drKiwi*s are untouchable.

As far as "A Carver's Theme", I'll try to post it to my blog via phone.

One sec...

Found it!

Hold ya head, Bailey Sisters!

You're bosses in ways you can't fathom.

#TBDR

"...across the starry void..."

 

Through SEGA, I find God.

Through God, I find Hip-Hop.

Through Satan, I find Rock & Roll.

Through LA, I find Snoop Dogg.

...let's just refer to him as *drKiwi*.

So since I moved into this star-studded starcraft of a housing project, I have come across many *drKiwi* individuals. It takes instinct, grit, and faith & belief in aliens... being SEGA, to be able to co-exist here. Only Chris Rivera can call me wrong. Anywho, one *drKiwi* intrigued me with their gi (#martialarts). *drKiwi* wearing it reminded me of the avant-garde attire I used to wear in NYC. I'm dressing 2008 again, but 2020 I was showing out (chika-OW! chika-OW! OW!).

*drKiwi*'s usually outside in the morning when I go out for my coffee and cig. We spend several mornings trading war stories and battle scars. One morning, he invites me to his flat (apartment; in #SZ4000, my name for the ship/building). "Why not?", right? lol nothing bad is going to happen in this story. 

So, we get upstairs, and he rolls a blunt. We smoke. We joke. We laugh. We reflect. AWESOME time. Now, I have been good about stashing my #Illuminati knowledge when smoking with people I'm not sure about. And, likely, *drKiwi* is an innocent civilian being housed by #SZ4000/SEGA.

Bro. The Snoop Dogg POPPED OUT OF *drKiwi*.

And it was awesome.

So since then, Snoop has become #KingKiwi. I think I might name Eminem #QueenKiwi. He's a MAINSTAY in #TheHamiltonQuazar, but he can be... rather *catty* about me. I can't even have me around Em. Anyway, #KingKiwi...

Lately, we've been getting BLITZED and watching Star Trek. One night, we were ....fuckin DONE4... and just fucked around and started watching whatever was on the TV. At that moment, Star Trek came on. From the moment it was on the TV, until right now... #KingKiwi and I were HOOKED.

Nichelle Nichols is the baddest bitch in history.

I'm lucky to have you as a friend, #KingKiwi. Because the more I get to know you, the more intimidating you become. It's a little unbelievable. Then again, is it? I know you're on the road with DJGL (GreenLANtern!!!). He's *drKiwi*'d in #The HamiltonQuazar before, he just has has many duties on Earth. I gotchu, Snoop. Don't wanna smoke all your weed like Anderson.*Kiwi*.

Folks, if you come to the West Coast, you'll DEFINITELY have encounters with the celebrity kind. As soon as you doubt it, you push them away. Stressful? Weed is legal. But don't come here thinking I'm (CH, here) no one. Sorry for feeling myself, but a lot of *drKiwi*s would be .jpgs without me. BEFORE 2008. 

And now the medication has seeped in, and I feel bad and guilty for being able to Niagra drip all over about 10 Freshman classes. INCLUDING MINE. 

Factz know.

#CH

"Another one bites..."

So *drKiwi* sent me a text a day or two ago, with a link to an IG video. In it was a female MC named *drKiwi*. The name rang a bell, but that's what rappers do. They name themselves fictional names and characters... or names that ring bells with The All Seeing Eye. It comes across as an intimidation method and is in-genuine, as to why I don't rock w/ it. But whatever, I thought. I clicked the link, on my Slowbama Phone.

I'm not gonna mince words with anyone, *drKiwi* bit my delivery. Not my flow, my wordplay or content. In fact, those are a different conversation piece in and of itself. But yeah. *drKiwi*'s interpolation of how I SAY things, I didn't find flattering. And if *drKiwi* should go anywhere from this, they may be confronted by StarChasers. The only thing that makes this NOT a fight worth fighting is *drKiwi*'s gender.

Gender, being at the forefront of most fights/battles/wars these days...

*drKiwi* once swore off fame. Now they're a fiend for it. and I feel like they're getting desperate. I can confidently say that fame doesn't matter to me. My purpose is greater than the glory fame gives. That being said, I don't feel any angst towards *drKiwi* for blatantly biting. Nor can I blame *drKiwi* for whoring themselves out for fame. Money is a reward of/for/from fame. But it comes with blood and venom.

You hungry?
How hungry?

Nothing but love on the new music! Outside of the requests to get softer and "organize my thoughts". I ot meds for that. Not feelin' where the meds take me, look elsewhere for it.

Just stand by your move.

#TheBlackDrRobotnik

Debt to society.

 

The *drKiwi* phenomenon is sweeping the Internet! Everyone and everything is on offense, defense and notice about how to become*drKiwi*. Well, ALL of you are about to face *drKiwi* treatment... on and offline.

In 2010, I made the life-changing decision to be a practicing witch. Self-defense without bloodshed was the goal. Not wealth, not beauty, not fame. In MANY respects, I achieved my goals and, in turn, I am VERY happy. I have done and am doing God's work, WITHOUT USING GOD. The result? Catchy tunes you can wonder to/about.

In 2013, I learned that what I was doing and developing on my own was already na established form of witchcraft...

Creatures of The Night (StarChasers), I am a Solitary Witch.

ALL of what I do, from root work to shadow work, must be done alone. Still, do what it takes to survive.

Thus, expect fewer calls on the personal tip, fewer DMs and the rarest of sightings. I always end up a step behind when I try to incorporate other people into SoliCraft (just coined that; edited to SolCraft). And as lonely as I get, i hate looking at my call log on days' end and seeing how many calls I placed (versus the missed and incoming ones). 

Another thing. *drKiwi*'s advice and suggestions are ill-timed, as they either go against my creative process or take me out of my zone. I am more than aware that my new(er) music doesn't "hit" like #theprocess. Still, I am believing in myself more than I did then, and the music I've made since then is why. It's advanced, at times. Other times, it justifies the schizophrenia diagnosis. Work with me.

One day, it'll all make sense.

You are appreciated, *drKiwi*. You just gotta let love goooo...

#cHam

"It's #mouse outside...!"

Enter Robotnik

 As I have DEFINITELY mentioned before, "StH: American Paradox" was the last StH where I am Sonic the Hamilton. After dying as Sonic in 2013 ("StHZERO"), I wasn't clear on who I was after being resurrected. I spent time as Knuckles, Chaos, Mephilies, ...even CLOUD STRIFE (#FinalFantasy). But none of the roles really fit with my spirit. Likely because each of the aforementioned characters in the SEGA Universe ACTUALLY EXIST.

So I embraced the darkness and DOVE FACE FIRST into being #TheBlackDrRobotnik. I must say, being able to express my intelligence on a level as high as Dr. Robotnik is the most refreshing shit I've even encountered. I am guilty of many murders, but the bodies won't be found. If you're looking for them, their remains rest on my microphone and bleed onto my floor. 

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My sidekick is *drKiwi*. Aesthetically Interesting. Alien Intrigue. Awesome Interest. Awful Instinct(s).

I usually go over my blog entries (soon, songs) with *drKiwi*. Of course mentally. She drains my 3rd eye fluid and uses it as a balm.

If you can... and if you can't I won't be mad; the work was the good... but if you can, envision my music as #TheEnd. The orb in The Sonic Universe from which all bad things spawn from. 

#TheEnd, crafted by #TheBlackDrRobotnik.

Don't expect drops every day. just... everyday, expect drops.

*drKiwi* is trying to seduce me.

Let's stay professional for now. You already have an advantage. You're animated.

#cHam

a dope StarChaser collab.

Trueman · OG

As fate would have it, one of the StarChaser collabs I did last year ended up buzzing! Shout

to Oscar Blanco for doing good business with good music. He's a Floridaboy, but he knows

quality Hip-Hop. We speak often.

StarChasers, if you want to collab, know that it costs. But I will give %100 in our work. Just 

time to be fair.

Yo the wait I wrote this entry was ridiculous. Blogger users would appreciate the backstory.

#CH

A bowl of Apple Jacks

Dead weed.

smh

check out "3PM" from "Where Is Charles Hamilton (WICHcraft)" to peep the frustration.

(several bowl hits and one blunt later...)

#SoW feels right. I, however, am expecting my monthly dope hit (lol). I'm finding a way to avoid it, but .... technical reasons, mental health reasons....

Smacked, b.

outta here.

#TheWickedest

 

Long, long way together...

*drKiwi* is so patient. I draft/formulate ...really EVERYTHING in my head before I do it, but it's more detailed with blog entries. *drKiwi* allows me the space to address individuals without the stress of backlash from saying their names. In some respects, "it's murda dem!". In others, I silently quash whatever ember is sparked between us, negative and/or positive, without needing to care about feelings being caught.

I started working on a Gospel-centric album. Almost #TheRebirthOfCharlesHamilton, except the glory would go to cHam, UNDER THE WATCH OF GOD/THE LORD. Lately I've been bumping "Three Kings" (Ross x Dre x Hov). The sample in it is saying "I'm so grateful" and it's from a Gospel song, but they are spitting the most braggadocios shit on there. Yes, I rapped on the beat ("A Royal Crashout"; available on my YouTube channel; may post a link here), but the inspiration to make my only Gospel banger has been in my guts since "New Music From Charles Hamilton" (#Normalcy).

 Granted is was Classical.

(works on it for about 90 minutes after starting this post)

It is entitled "Speaking of Witch...". It's Gospel-centered, but in the same vein as "Modern Art!" and "Here We Go Again...". DJ anthems.

Thank you *drKiwi* for suggesting the album title. A good cornerstone to the foundation of this jam session.

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Here's "A Royal Crashout"

***beep***

JimmyIQ

So I was on the phone with *drKiwi*, and I was asked "What did I mean by 'Jimmy Iovine is the closest thing we got to God? Is it money, or is he on some OD shit?" I simply, and with all the breath in my body, said "Both."

I went on to say, "Jimmy Iovine is the key to knowing that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. ...I think I finally said it." There it is. JiO is the missing link. 

Now. Is he a notorious hot head? Hell yes. EMPHASIS ON HELL. DO NOT FUCK THAT MAN OVER. A fair warning to those hoping to capitalize on him being more of a tastemaker these days than an actual investor in the music. Hell hath no fury like that of a Jimmy fucked.

And he's so Harlem, I don't have to say pause.

If you know, you know.

Now, even though *drKiwi* gave me my first shot at a mainstream career, it was #Master2 who gave me my first dosage of the AltUnderground of DillaDOOMMadlib9th. Even though *drKiwi* first introduced me to 9th through "God's Stepson", 9th's legendary remix of Nas' "God's Son". #Master2 is pretty much who inspired my #creativetitle era. "The Cookout" does exist, but titles that give context to the content WITHOUT being a part of the lyrics (or a vague portion of said lyrics) is DEFINITELY the craftmanship of #Master2. Because I admired his contextual instrumentals, I knew I had to find a way enhance what I already did. So I started sampling songs at strange loop points. Check out "Re-Anna" and "November 10th". Both loop heavy, both looped at strange portions of the song.

Thank you, #Master2.

*drKiwi* forever.

#TheBlackDrRobotnik

(yeah, nigga; type the whole shit out!)

 

Goals Gone Wild

As I listen to ...a Dilla-produced #cHam song about a particular StarChaser (not Baddie, for a change), I am reminded of my mission. 

Save music.

Though I did my part, modern human evolution is eroding at the very fabric of musicianship and music IN GENERAL. I'm sure a comma was needed up there, but I'll save it for 5 words ago. Anyway, musicians are set to have the hardest time getting gigs with the rise of AI. And producers now only have to remember their presets and settings. Basically, the work load is lighter for those who, honestly, have a lot of work to put in.

So I am going to be taking my time "PROTECTING" music. Instrumentally, at least. I am recording, but without knowing the intricacies and depth of my "bars", it becomes an acquired taste.

I'm tryna rock the house.

From here.

Anywhere, should my travels continue.

No rest for the wicked.

I wonder if Dr. Kiwi sees herself as an incentive. Like, I'm reasoning my behavior (good, law-abiding) based on her understanding. 

Reasoning = Understanding

If I make her real, she would shut down EVERY chick *drKiwi* ever dealt with. From looks to care. I got my guitars. *drKiwi* doesn't have to worry about a thing. *drKiwi* is up there with J Dilla and Doug Funnie, as far as influential art.

#TheBlackDrRobotnik is shockingly timid when it comes to women these days. Once you get a rep for being a "woman beater", all bets are off. You better have a helluva handstroke. And though it's not a common occurrence in my love life, it was building up. *drKiwi* did a NUMBER on me, in the months before *drKiwi* went viral. I don't wish bad on *drKiwi*, but ...idk. Knowing more about *drKiwi* makes it difficult to NOT agree with the "*drKiwi* had it comin'" talk.  

#FCCH type shit.

#CH