StarChaser Money

 Just filling in the blanks at this point...

I have received the donations. Thank you very much. I bought SEVERAL drum packs, got a Pro account on SoundCloud, ...I re-upped my subscription to this #topsecret record pool from which I get my samples from. Donated to Wiki (I use them a lot). Paid a few debts off. I haven't bought any weed yet. Maybe when I make a few more dollars. Still, I held y'all down, ya know? 6-8 projects on SoundCloud. Guaranteed for a YEAR.

I am so thankful for my StarChasers. EVERYONE, from Dalvyn to Drew to Mike Dee. I ask that y'all bear with me, because this is a very confusing time for me. I'm comfortable, far from home, but I'm far from home so I'm uncomfortable. Yes, there are LOTS of celebs out here. And they likely know who I am on a DEEP level. But GETTING to them is a bitch. And the money it takes to get to them could EASILY go right back into my own career/endeavors. 

(originally written on 5/18/25; continued today)

Look at God! I got a new phone in time for an interview with DPSS, and DPSS is on top of my benefits situation. It's gonna be rough for about 2 more weeks, but everything is in alignment. Thank you, God. You are a wonder of amazement. 

While on the subject of God, EVEN GOD RECOGNIZES ME AS A SIX! WHY CAN'T YOU?! Damn, Gio and Dil! The fuck y'all niggas be doin' when I'm not around?! lol

...and I already know about Jack. The LONG way.

Still and all, Im feeling blessed. OH! I also decided that my next instrument will be an Akai MPK 61-key. For me to do what I'm about to do, that is the necessary tool. Akais don't break easily. Wait until they get into turntables!

Wishful thinking.

The livestreams have been getting easier to manage! I appreciate you, StarChasers, for not triggering me as much as you did in the past. The love is real, over here...

#reborn

When Trump gets an apology.

I, Charles Hamilton, Jr., would like to formally apologize to President Donald J. Trump for calling him a "bitch ass nigga" when I found out my benefits got cut. It is completely in the hands of The State of California. 

I have no issues with the state, and I want no smoke with the city (LA). All I know is, I submitted the proper documents A WHOLE MONTH before it was due (upon getting notice that they were due). The website reflects that I submitted it, and that it has to be processed by the system. 

If The State of... is watching/reading this blog, let me know so I can upload the screenshots from the BenefitsCal website. 

I have NO income coming in, and donations are being saved until I have enough to purchase the items I need. NOT having benefits mean I have to tap into that money to get survival tools. 

You see where/how I live, every Friday. Humble living. I'm not balling. But The State of California didn't have to do me like that.

At the same time, a BIG change may be coming.

Word to Journee Smollette (hey, Hunter!).

Aftermath, what's pockin'?!

#reborn

About your donations...

Though I've received them all, my food stamps are still cut. I been calling DPSS all morning. Eventually I'll have to go there. But I already did what I had to do, ONLINE, AND THE WEBSITE SHOWS THAT. 

This could be a sign for me to dead ass go out and get a record deal. I can't rely on the government to provide for me. My StarChasers (y'all) have been MORE than a blessing. The only thing I can do is knock y'alls socks off with the music.

Im workinonit.

One time faya mind.

"You ain't even impressed no more; you used to it..."

Innerdrive

 

Shout out to my man Smarty. One of the FEW industry people I can trust/count on. We linked this past weekend. Chopped it up, brainstormed... I forgot how much of a genius he is. He dead takes his time to talk. It can frustrate, if you don't know better.

We may get into that point in a few.

But it was with Smarty that I came to the following conclusion:

I'm a recording artist!

Recording artists don't perform. Think The-Dream, PinkPantheress, Crooked I, Hi-Tek... they MAY take the stage, but their sole purpose is to inspire performing artists (almost to the very performance factor) and make, what can be blasphemously considered, #drafts.

I know HOW to perform. I have performed everywhere from The Apollo Theatre to Glastonbury. The meds/diagnosis make it VERY difficult to be around big crowds. I first noticed this during my 2015 SOBs set. Not only was I not confident in the music I was performing, I didn't like what I had on (which made me feel like I looked like a poser) and I couldn't see a SOUL in the audience. 

All I wanted to do was go to my home studio and OD on the mic/ProTools.

I would say, since... 2018, I been OBSESSED with JUST recording/producing/mixing. I did a pop-up performance with Enjetic in 2019, and sold out a show in Baltimore w/ DJ Nick. It's just honestly not as thrilling as it used to be. And yeah, the anxiety is real. 

For some reason, when I DO receive love, it makes me angry and violent. I've done my homework (both online, library and within), and I see that such is a formality of heroin. 
The more I reflect on that drug, the less I like myself.

And the meds FORCE me to LOVE myself.

Big difference between LIKE and LOVE.

And chemicals determine/tilt the balance of such.

For me, at least.

DEFINITELY blogging to 2Pac right now.

Wow.

This is what journalism is supposed to be.

Alas, the song is only 4 minutes long.

And fame is 15.

So you only really get 11 minutes, when you're a performing artist.

The better you perform, the longer each minute seems.

But would those minutes even matter without...

The Recording Artist?

Back to Smarty.

I learned a lot about self-expression through watching him. He keeps you engaged, while he's taking his time to give you 100% pure knowledge and wisdom. Expect to hear more about Smarty Arty on this blog.

And his partner, Jen!

I met Jen (and Smarty) at Record Plant Studios in LA. They were and are some of the most genuine, wise, intelligent... BEAUTIFUL people I met in this business. 

Listen. No one's hands are clean in the business. Not even mine. But the filth on the palms of me, Smarty and Jen come from the skulls we've crushed to get TRUE equality in the business. BEYOND race. ABOVE class. OUTSIDE of sex. 

P

RO
FESS
ION
AL
ISM!!!

More to come. But my purpose is to be #TheUltimateRecordingArtist. If I am rewarded to be such, I can reward The Last of the StarChasers with my presence, live.

"...quite like I did it!"

Trump and A Bowl

Before I write this blog entry, let me hit this bowl...

(hits bowl)

Aight. I'm right now.

So look. I went on the Benefitscal website, and they gave me the paperwork to REAPPLY. Instead of beefing with them on the phone (my phone is broke) or sending a funky email, I simply complied.

There should be NO QUESTION as to my growth in mental health. I'm learning what battles to fight, who's an ally, and to STAY AWAY FROM THE ENEMY. 

The tricky part about STAYING AWAY FROM THE ENEMY is, much of life's design HINGES on how much I love 3 others. 

You know who they are.

Even if you never heard of 'em.

Shit, one of 'em is making my life HELL because he's so famous.

Not his fault. He's just chosen to be so.

I appreciate all the donations. And it's all going towards making the music greater than before. I know you care. I'm selfish to believe you're only here for the music. And if you ARE here for the person, pardon my selfishness in insisting you listen. But if in fact you are here for the music, thanks to the podcast, I know what can make a CH project classic.

^
Me and my trauma bear, Carothers, circa 2018.

Speaking of new music, I hereby announce that the Sonic the Hamilton series is CLOSED. The final project was "StH: American Paradox". Since then, my music (no matter the title) was from the perspective of Dr. Julian "Robotnik" Kintobor, aka Eggman. I find that I am able to express my intelligence more and better as Dr. Robotnik. 

Sonic is a jack of all trades, but DEFINITELY an athlete. 

But SEGA fans, fret not!

I am working on a new series of music that explores the lore of SEGA, OUTSIDE OF Sonic the Hedgehog/Hamilton.

It's only a matter of time...

(oh... thanks for giving me another shot, Trump; hopefully the condescending tone in my "thanks" will let you know that a personal conversation is due...)

Truck Fump

At this point, my StarChasers are all I got.

I do plan to get the SP404.

As well as a guitar, bass and performance keyboard.

In the meantime, Trump is making it difficult for me to get my benefits. As in, I no longer receive them. The reason? I didn't "re-certify" in time. The deadline was April 30th. I submitted it (the recertification) on April 30th. 

Niggas is being assholes, really.

Not about the GoFundMe, tho...

I plan to get my own Stratocaster (Fender), a drum machine (Roland SP-404), some posters, clothes, and with whatever is left, get some food.

Thank you, #CreaturesOfTheNight.

And thank you in advanced for donating.

#reborn

Out From Under

I promise you. I'm trying to lay low until I have the nuke loaded and ready to launch. But life be life-in', b. It's hard to not blog. Especially when it is dead ass AN OCCUPATION. Like, I'm a certified, legitimate blogger. 

Best Blogger Alive

Last Blogger Standing

On LinkedIn, I'm registered as a BLOGGER.

In fact, I use "blogger" as an official title to describe who I am (with my fingertips).

Pianist, beatmaker, composer, producer, EXECUTIVE producer, session musician (drums, guitar, bass), DJ, as well as journalist and advocate/ambassador for/representative of The Green Party (as you can see, weed is legal in the big cities).

A lot of stuff is going on in my life. Trump is responsible for some of this shit. I just can't bring myself to hate him. He's really just a confused New Yorker in The White House. With that said, this bitch ass nigga cut my food stamps! AND NOW I GOTTA GET A JOB!!! 

I AM A FULL TIME MUSICIAN!!!!!, with bad anxiety and a schizophrenia diagnosis. I will do HORRIBLE in the workplace. Not only that, my "normal" self is when I'm in a controlled environment making music. I'm not gonna be able to make as much music if I get a job. To add, I'm a public figure. Any "StarChaser" seeing me at a 9-5 would make fun, and I'd be viral for the wrong reason.

Fuck that shit.

Now. As a musician, I am able to rock with any instrument (provided I get the time to figure it out, eg. the harp and violin, of which I can play). And my musicianship enhances my sampling. But I'm only used to software when it comes to sampling. I HAVE used an MPC. 500, 2000XL, 3000, ...and I have an MPK controller.

But I want to take it to the next level.

Instead of getting a new turntable deck, I'm gonna jump RIGHT in The In-Crowd (I see you Gths!!!!!!!!!!) and pick up a Roland SP-404. A lot of my favorite undergrounders use it, and I can see me making some shit with it. So, stay tuned!!!

I would get the Korg K-oss, but that's TOO next level.

AIGHT.

back into custody (#Conviction, coming soon)

"Faster! Faster!"

What my X thinks of me...

Courtesy of Chris Rivera.

ALL HEAT is being produced.

ICE COLD everything.

Stay tuned!!!!

|#stsl|

 

From #timeout...

 Jr.'s being bad.

Charles-ly bad.

#reborn

Currently in hibernation...

 I like it here.

...but eventually I have to wake up. Eventually, I have to GET up.

Thankfully, I'm ready.

New music/announcements soon come.

#reborn

Like I always do at this time...

For starters, this year is starting off GREAT professionally. Many opportunities, many promises, ...all toward the goal of making a living from music. 

I now have to take time and decide what's best for me.

The podcast is going well. Enjetic was in a car accident, so the show is on hold until he feels up to it again. 3rd Eye Magic is being spearheaded by CYoung, and I have the utmost faith and trust in his business acumen.

Where am I with everything?

Well... My faith in God/The Lord has been restored. 

God/The Lord told me to take a LONG, DEEP listen to Infinite Psalms and to take it serious. I did, and I now believe that when I am with God/The Lord, I'm unstoppable.

What does that mean for Goths?

I welcome you to discover God for yourself. You're already forgiven for WHATEVER sin you committed. You just gotta pick up your cross and follow him. I know, I know. I don't follow anyone, so why God? 

Because everything you know about good AND evil comes from God.

Argument over.

I am making music, but I'm at a crossroads. My comfort zone is self-depreciation. I'm not comfortable being a boss. I'm working on redefining what it means to be a boss. Also, bear in mind that this is YEAR 20!!!!! of me making music. 

I'm taking it light this year. Besides, you have over 400+ BRAND NEW CH songs and instrumentals. Visit the website (click here.)

With the above being said, I'm going off the grid for a bit. If you know how to reach me, dooit. But I gotta take time to prioritize, and I don't want to jinx things by speaking ahead of the divine schedule.

I'll be around.

#reborn.

I N V U

I don't know what I would do without you. yet you're so common. So down to Earth. It's unbelievable. You know and break down things before they surface. Basically, you know what the fucking deal is with me.

I am a conflicted Goth.

Because of you, I believe in God. Because of God, I believe in YOU. You are my sin. You are my redemption. Harlem is unprepared for how down I am for you (can you dig it?). But they would understand.

That shit still in HARLEM.

I cannot betray you. I'm hurt that such is what you expect from me. I would STARVE for your approval. It's not in me to cross you. I work TOO HARD to be another scammer. 

Does my output offend you? I'm trying to REDEEM music... with songs that are my THEME music. I won't lie, sometimes you can be a handful. But I know you, and I know you don't mean harm. 

If only you saw yourself through my eyes. Felt yourself with my heart. Heard yourself with my ears.

You met a monster. You created a BEAST. And my loyalty to you is the only chink in my armor.

I heard it's the same thing for you, too.

We gon make it...

On the horn with CYoung and StarChaser Andrew Howe.

#reborn

Mike's rap

 I spoke with Mike Dee Jackson (StarChaser Central Podcast) not too long ago. Great conversation, as always. Shouts to Stik. But yeah, anyway, he was telling me a story and... I swear I could SEE him telling the story. So I let him finish his story (respectfully), then I asked him if he had any music videos for his songs. He said he did, and emailed me his YouTube channel.

On it, I found a joint he did over a Sha-leik, Sade flip. The song is good, but his motions in the video drive the point home. You can see that he is being vulnerable, but he's keeping it hip-hop. I love the video. I may make some videos like this.

Oh, to be inspired by a StarChaser.

And we freestyled over the phone. Lol writer's block, gone.

#reborn