Uncool Christmas.

 So.

After being deceived into being put into a permanent mental hospital in Virginia, I managed to make it back to New York.

From there, I had a politician landlord, who was money hungry and attention-starved.
I had very little money, so I used my platform to offer support and endorsement. 
Still he instigated fights and, inevitably, put me out.
During the COVID-19 crisis.

An artist with limited skill and intellect continued and continues to berate and demean me and my talent, only offering praise when he needs said talent to push him forward in life.

I have been in 4-5 temporary houses, being belittled and demerited as an individual everywhere I went.
I have gotten into several physical altercations.

I currently live in an estate where I am the only Negro resident.
Not just on the property, but in the area.
And I am being discriminated against.

Much more to mention, I'm sure, but...

Now I spend Christmas alone.

It doesn't matter how much money I spend or attention I give.

EVERYONE wants something they are too cowardly (read: pussy) to ask for.

The question isn't whether I have it or not.
Even when it is.

So.

Expect graphic and drastic changes in the coming year.

Love rears it's ugly head.

Enjoy your holiday season.

-CHJrEsq.

Fireside, blazing #bright

Several mid-life crisises in one year, coupled with losses, breakups and mourning.

Creatively, this was a monumental year.
Personally, ...like, on a personal level, this year was tumultuous. 

I follow my heart.
I love who and how I love.

Yet, I am alone for the holidays.

No one's fault.
No one's remedy.

I was telling someone online yesterday that I would love to be with a celebrity chick.
I have told the world that I would love to be with an FDAlien.




When can I be in love with myself?
When will I not be criminalized for such?

Happy hollowdays, everyone.

#uncooler

Un-Gang Related

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Stinger!!!

#ColumbineGang

#CGi

CHJrEsq.

 

Are we celebrating xmas this year (2020)?

 

Happy hollowdays.

-CHJrEsq.

{#boyohboy}

No Cuomo

Happy hollowdays.

-CHJrEsq.

(#boyohboy)

 

Today10 10Today

 10 years of today.

10 years ago, I was first hospitalized for mental health. 

10 years ago, I met a young lady who would change my life forever.

10 years ago, I met a guy who literally was ride or die.

10 years ago, I started producing on GarageBand and Logic.

10 years ago today, I was incarcerated for assaulting a police officer.

The lady is not present in my life (in her true form).

The guy has since passed.

I pled guilty, and have restrictions on going back to Cleveland.

There have been many updates on Logic and GarageBand.

I am happy to be free.

To be able to walk around in peace, so long as I don't cause a ruckus. 

I am in a relationship, it's long distance, but the love is strong.

I do not want to lose my freedom again.

I like to believe I have elevated since jail.

No arrests since.

Just hospitalizations.

I'm watching my temper.

My drug intake.

Admittedly, I drink more. 

But I think more.

I want and would love to teach someday.

I am learning proper teacher etiquette.

I made more of myself since jail.

Though I know she is, I hope my mother is proud.

Thank you for always holding me down.

Thank you Joe and The Ruperto Family.

I love you, Grandma.

All apologies to those I've "burned" in the last 8 years.

I'm used to being alone, I'm used to being used and my heart is healing.

I am love, says Jack Splash and The Jacksons.

Special thank you to George Massa, for being the damn thing he is.

I honor you, J Dilla.

I love you more, DaPu.

The whole Federation. 

Just know, showing you guys the kind of love you are entitled to and deserve leads to arrests and hospitalizations.

And beef in these streetz.

I see you, Jov.

Slim!

40 sets of it, nigga!

Im out to #TheTavern.

Won't start, won't be.

LoveLove, y'all. 

#ColumbineGang

Possible #nurecruit announcement, soon.

#uncooler

addendum: 

10 years ago, I officially started DJing.

Also 10 years ago, I devoted myself to Magic & The Dark Arts.

RudeTV

Whether you exist or not, I would like for my YouTube content, specifically the playlists, to serve as the initial, immediate programming.

Yesterday was the final episode of --Aliens and The Sun.

It was emotional and lit.

Above is the episode itself.

But... to Dreamland.

Chiller, Syfy [The Sci-Fi Channel] and Shudder all come together (with #TheTalented, of course) and submitted archived and original content to #RudeTV.

#RudeTV partners with #Apple and #SEGA to create #Hellivision.
A 3D visual network experienceexperience network.

Like a haunted house in your living room.

To be made mobile.

Sonic the Hedgehog will become #TheNewGod.

Dr. Robotnik will become #ThatOldDevil.

M. Night Shyamalan will be responsible for #ThNextBible.

Chance the Rapper will be responsible for #Gothspel.

Jay-Z will be active-though-unofficial principal of Frederick Douglass Academy.
DoE, please make a note of it.

I have to personally investigate The Greater Bronx Area.
Yesterday was an eye-opener.

As mentioned earlier {on this blog}, I am a #GreenParty representative.

Whatever region I live in long-term, I will represent #TheGreenParty from and in.

Keepin' it real is confused with being rude.

If you wanna be rude, you're following your heart.

Hearts stop.

1 Corinthians 13:11 (kjv)

When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

LoveAllNight, y'all...

#uncooler

ScreenActorsGuild

 

 I have had a bond with the Shady/Aftermath/G-Unit roster for almost as long as I've been alive.

As a celebration of their influence and... fuck it, a demo tape of my skill, I present to you...

The Scarlet Letter.

Thank you, #DreAndTheGang.

Many memories.

Good and bad.

Always good with y'all, always bad with all.

addendum: 

I'm Mike from Long Island (Star-n-Buc; sorry, Em)

I'm chamzino@hotmail.com (sorry, Em and Dre)

I held resentment towards 50 for being TOO much of a Curtis (sorry, 50)

I said "Shady/Aftermath can swallow" when in the studio with SKE, Spud and a few others, in the spirit of #4Love (sorry, sorrynotsorry, but sorry guys)

I don't like Kendrick or Game.

Stay away from Freddie Gibbs.

{i love you, simone}

#uncooler