37 is a prime number. Only divisible by 1 and 37 itself. Now, I can look back and make improvements or take inventory from here and assert myself.
I want to maximize my prime. I want to be less passive-aggressive, more smooth. I want to make less inclinations and more informed decisions. With these being the improvements I can make, I clearly have mastered looking back.
Where am I?
Though I am living in a "luxury" apartment (in the hood, might I add), I got here via crime. A crime against many things, but ultimately my insanity took it's toll. Regardless, I am able to create at my own leisure, in conditions that better or worsen at my own volition. However, it's God-level to keep the place clean.
Wow. I really suck at asserting myself.
Let me look this up...
lol without citing my source, there is a bit of ACTING involved with being assertive. That's the antithesis of what I had in mind, but ...dead ass IS what it is.
How many actors do I know in my life?
Honestly, not many.
It's best that I DON'T jinx my lovelife by talking about it. Just know that I let go of certain pipe dreams to be clear on what I bring to the table. Even with this putting pressure on how I carry myself, it puts into perspective how I treat EVERYONE.
I may have mentioned that I got back in contact with H2 (Halo)! Definitely was a breath of fresh air for me to hear from him. Still, it's kinda toxic. It felt like I always had to work for his love. Sounds gay, I know. But ...matter fact, fuck it. I'm over it.
No passive-aggressiveness. I know my worth, and we only double each other up.
Sha-leik fell on tough times. Hate when it happens. He'll muscle his way through. Sciryl and I never manage to catch each other via phone. We will. And it'll be like old times.
Same with Kesed. And I'd like to publicly apologize to Kes for misspelling his name in a heartfelt message. Kinda ruined the theme of the message, but I hope he can forgive me for screwing that one up.
These were my closest friends and, honestly, biggest influences early on in my recording career. I know, I have a large list of influences. But dead Sciryl, Kesed, Sha-leik and Halo were my go-to guys for inspiration. Albeit marijuana's presence...
And then the damn cigarettes, man. The bonds forged under a cigarette lit sunset.
I don't feel like I'm getting all my words out. I'm just excited for another birthday. I earned my place in life and society.
