If you've been in tune with me since I hit the scene in 2008, you'll notice a pattern. From clothing to flowing. There is a reason for such. I want you to get used to me being around, while accepting the distance placed between us. Yes I wear pink, but I'm not social. Yes I wear black, but I'm hopeful. I identify as a Goth, but I have a great relationship with God. I'm peaceful, but have ties to the streets. I suck at relationships, but I'm always in one.
I have shared parts of my professional and family history, in hopes to get you to open up about your scars... TO HELP YOU GET PASSED THEM. I don't like the feeling of wallowing in one's own sorrow. Nothing gets done. So if being progressive about my ever loving soul seems me NOT Gothic, so be it. But I know my history in the darkness, and Harlem knows it too. I'd venture to say NEW YORK, CITY AND STATE, KNOWS I GET DOWN IN THE ABSENCE OF LIGHT.
I'm more than aware that Curtis Mayfield and James Brown are not immediate picks for Goths to listen to. But JB is cited as the father of heavy Metal with his screeching on a song. And Mayfield is/was the voice of a revolution that STARTED with Blacks, but was meant for any and all pariah of the world. I just wanted to open the Gothic mind and heart to fuel for one's spoken word exploits.
Look. No one wrote the blueprint for my existence in the public eye. I used to model myself after Em. Nuances and all. It worked, but I only saw and heard Em, and not enough of myself. When I finally got the courage to go in the booth and vent, I felt more like myself. Granted I was subbing Hov in every other bar, and Marshall caught a few strays, but it was all uncensored, unfiltered CH.
I can stand behind that. In due time, I'll break it all down and it'll be easier to digest. Until then, everyone has a 3rd eye, 4th ear, 5th nose and 6th sense. Upon discovering yours, the definitions become easier to access. And even if that doesn't work, you are witnessing a hopeless Goth struggle to believe in himself... on beat.
And having a blast dooinit.
#reborn
