So today, starting at around 7am PST, I decided to listen to The Hamiltonziation Process high. I never did it before. Dead ass.
And...
Fuck!
You're welcome!
I didn't realize I went this hard. I can dead see why so many want me to go back to that mode/zone/grind. As I listen to "Keep It Up" (from #SubstanceAbuse), I BELIEVE I can do it. Yet the beat is calling for a NON-written ass whoopin'. Which is kinda what I was talking about. Believing in myself enough to get in the booth WITHOUT something to lean on (lyrically). Even with that in the eggshell, this is some of the best music I've even heard. I shedded several tears, laughed my ass off, got tight... this is an experience.
You're welcome!
I didn't realize I went this hard. I can dead see why so many want me to go back to that mode/zone/grind. As I listen to "Keep It Up" (from #SubstanceAbuse), I BELIEVE I can do it. Yet the beat is calling for a NON-written ass whoopin'. Which is kinda what I was talking about. Believing in myself enough to get in the booth WITHOUT something to lean on (lyrically). Even with that in the eggshell, this is some of the best music I've even heard. I shedded several tears, laughed my ass off, got tight... this is an experience.
Rivera said something to the effect of, "don't ask for belief, do what you KNOW". And I felt that. I just know that 99% of ...at least America, is being raped into believing ...what there is to believe in. From Trump to Kirk. RIP Chuck Norris, by the way. I call myself softening the blow of doubt. One thing I learned from my Interscope experience is, if it can be doubted, it can be outed. Sometimes, it's like my music is so unbelievable it's not real. And I know how hard I work.
I just want to be believed in.
So I can break this streak of letting people down.
But, here we go
I didn't let my mother down, my dad is proud, grandma's proud, uncle's proud, my aunties are proud, my baby cousins are proud, my nieces and nephews brag about me... my exes kick rocks, my bullies are on rocks... I have nothing to prove. And Rivera, as critical as he can be, has become one of my best friends, I kinda want him to ONLY gloat about me. Same with Howe (Drew). Howe and Rivera, the *jersey* names of my 2 longest -Chasers.
So many of y'all.
And many of y'all came from music I hadn't indulged in(to), HIGH.
I remember being at CATS (Cleveland) and walking around Downtown Cleveland listening to Intervention. I could feel the young people who listened to it. I just wasn't high. #Intervention on weed is better than The Pink Lavalamp. It even has a Sha-leik beat on there. smh I did my big one w that.
I don't even need to get into the paralysis I felt during the first #StH. Awesome.
I didn't fall off.
I switched my style and target.
In fact, I can compare my 2012-present music to "TheSuperNaturalVacation", in that the 2 people I was talking to in the song (LITERALLY) were the topics of the song. Dead talking TO the targets. THE SAME 2 PEOPLE!!! A pair of *drKiwis* if I ever seen 'um.
But it's love.
The Hamilton Starship travels on...
Digital incentives, courtesy of Miss Kiwi!!!
#CH
