Everything seems to go down the rabbit hole from here/there. Nevertheless, there is a great difference between there and here. And I know I make it sound easy (to cope with; living in my world), but a lot of pain and sacrificing comes with maintaining A WHOLE UNIVERSE. And because we all have our own Universe (within, our close friends m, etc.), I’m not quick to run outside and claim that I RUN THE UNIVERSE. Because, in a way, EVERYONE runs The Universe.
I’m just that naive.
It seems that… it looks like you guys are ready for showtime! I’m ready, too. And because I have a good performance record, I’m actually confident. I don’t want to look too far ahead and not give it 100% the night of. But there are big plans for after the show(case). Just… don’t remind me about cigarettes. I lost Mom to ‘em, particular family members are on my ass about it… it was my decision to get a Newport. I did it for me. It’s on me to retrain to where I can push my voice out again. I feel pressured to say “I won’t let you down”. You (the one I hate to know watches) would tell me to panic. Then say what needs to be said to alleviate. Thus becoming habit-forming.
I hate that you watch, because I am FILTHY.
Psalms 51:7
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
~Enter the Hamilton~
