Both have great stories as to how they were written.
I haven't heard either high yet.
So yesterday, I had my mojo for about 7 hours.
I thought I would've been able to... like, how do I say this?
I thought I could make someone mine.
Long story short, things are staying professional.
I somewhat dont mind.
I think we both are aware of how dangerous us being an item would be.
For the first time, I can see desire withheld in the eyes of a woman.
Usually, I have to win a she over with like charm or something
I never get embraced for my looks.
I think she finds me attractive, and I tell her all the time that shes muy bonita, but... it could be more with us.
Or, nothing but a creative relationship between two people with several mutual friends.
I did say this to her:
The hour glass is running thin on love, in my world
I had a bad experience with white girls, black girls are demanding, it's hard to trust Latin girls, Arab girls are as bad as black girls (with a cultural and lingual divide), I haven't dated an Asian girl (and they ignore me when I try to holla)...
As i said, I'm not interested in being gay...
Caribbean girls (the oxtail of my eye) are hard to come across, impress and keep...
I'll just stick to going for money and watching porn.
Music is always the only love.
However, I found a way to integrate music with photography and videography.
At the same time, my creative vision is too left (go figure) for the average consumer.
I might just get a camera and make my own art.
At this point, I'm relying on disability checks I haven't been approved for.
Streaming money is bipolar.
Last week, I made $.39.
39 cents, my g.
I dont know who to blame.
So yeah.
I'll probably make album covers for folks.
I'm in my early 30s.
I dont have time for fucking around.
I also dont have the resources available to me to start a family.
But I'm horny, lonely, and in need of moral support from someone who sees me as a piece of meat.
Which would make me feel the right kind of weird about myself.
I won't be going to The 40/40 Club anymore.
They dont like me, I dont like them.
I found some dope records recently.
I'm gonna spend some time messing around with them.
See what I come up with.
Also, I do indeed have my own drum kit.
Im not sure if I'm gonna sell it yet, but its dope.
Back to the lab.
#captivating
