[Enter the Hamilton.]: May 2025

Romantic Psychosis

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I don't make music. Music makes me.

This picture means the world to me.

I am in a home I earned, by losing respect.

So I'm going the extra mile musically to vindicate/redeem myself.

I learned SO MANY new tricks in sampling. And I'm applying my piano knowhow to production. Something I've been doing, but now it's more pronounced.

I'm a pianist. Not a keyboardist. So somethings I do musically may not make sense. But it's all there. From the Hamiltonian Theory to Dr. Dre's Inverted Chords.

I love my MPK Mini. Had it for a minute, but now I'm really utilizing it. Depending on the money I make in the next few weeks, I may break down and get another turntable deck. I'll just be gentler with it. Nevertheless, the glitch in the Pioneer DDJ CAN be worked with. It just takes patience.

I got nothin but time.

Bubt yeah. my MPK is a killer. And I'm only using Logic now. No Virtual DJ, no Fruity Loops, no GarageBand. ALL Logic. This thing is a killer as well. Once again, thank you Chris Rivera for hooking me up.

Shouts to Tamuz for hooking me up with some GREAT drums. Tamuz, Saucy Labs, a few others. It really lightens my workload to have these drums, and it makes it a bit more fun. I now dig for DRUMS, instead of records. And I have a connect who sends me some QUALITY records to flip. I don't take requests anymore, but I'm more confident in my record collection than EVER.

I just pray technology doesn't fuck me over.

It's late. I know y'all wanna sleep. I'm just up with a cup (of coffee) and I'm bringing you the real. Heat from the heart, cold ass thoughts.

~reborn~

A beneficial update.

So I finally spoke with the people at DPSS, and they are allowing me to continue my benefits. Apparently, they called me as my phone was out of commission (on the 16th of April). Whatever the technicality was, we have everything squared away (did my interview over the phone) and I will soon be able to go shopping for food.

I want to thank EVERY StarChaser that pitched in. From the usual suspects to the first time felons, no matter how big or small the donation. I was able to launch a ln Artist Pro account on SoundCloud with the donations, so now there's an easier outlet to play the music. I want to thank Chris Rivera (once again) for helping me orchestrate this fundraiser. I stop short of making him my manager, for reasons he got to witness FOR HIMSELF. Once again I'd like to thank Mike Dee Jackson and Stick Braxton for reviewing my music an keeping the lightning bug alive, if you will.

Special shouts to Andrew Howe, Chris Baker, Dalvyn Ramirez, Tanya Wieman... all for the more personal support they show. Can't forget about Chimp1, Enjetic, CYoung, SKE, Spud... for collaboration and support as well. Of course, Sciryl, Sha-leik, Yung Nate, Kesed and Halo... my unit.

All the afformentioned, of whom have been very key in this trying time. P Dunner, Baddie, Dylan, ...my grandma and uncle, definitely. My Hamilton Aunties...

Love.

Bringing it back to better ways of enjoying my music, you might've read a cryptic tweet that read like:

The process that changed history.

On all DSPs July 4th, 2025.

#Hamiltonization

#THP

(@leroybenros let's goooo!)

Well, please be advised. The Hamiltonization Process hits streaming services on July 4th, 2025. It's been conference call after conference call, meeting after meeting, ... we're finally getting to it. Provided NOTHING comes up between now and 7/4/2025, get set to relive a moment in time/history.

I no longer have wifi in my apartment. The tech department is coming in a few days to see what was up. To be real, it was pirated. To be truthful, the building manager gave me the password. No slick shit, I just live one floor above the wifi hub. Whatever the issue is, I cannot go live. My phone data cannot handle YouTube live. In fact, writing blog entries in my phone is a killer. I may make time to go down to the DTLA Public Library. Who knows?

All I know is, I'm looking forward to the future. As black as it is...

HUGE shouts to Ellie Rizoa, who's SP404 game is NUTS (pause). Definitely been a pleasant challenge, keeping up with her

Aight! Out for now. May return soon...

#reborn

Impact (brace yourself!)

"I might spend my life alone.
(with you watching...!)
Sunshine, in the dark, alone.
(you're still watching...)
I'm in the dark, alone.

Would you mind if
I end up alone?

Would you mind if
I end up alone?"
-Charles Hamilton, "Kiki's Love"

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— The Gothic Rick Ross (@CharlesHamilton) May 21, 2025

So. I listened to... rather, I am listening to "Showtime w/ Apollo". It was recently reviewed by The StarChaser Central Podcast (Stik and Mike). I agree with the Robotnik rating, but for a different reason. Sonically, this tape is VERY intentional. I remember it well. I was living with VS Diamond, making MUCH different music WITH her than what I was making on my own. I was rebelling against the SOUND she was conforming to.

I am somewhat leaning on products such as stem separation and AI to (somewhat) root out particular sounds and nuances. At least the knowledge of such. The quality may SOUND degraded, but high-end plugins are in use for this project ("Showtime w/...").

I agree with the Robotnik rating, because I was very in-my-head with this tape. Being able to explain symbolism is a difficult things. So my best bet is to FURTHER process my goal with each song before just jamming on any beat. Not to say Apollo Brown makes just "any" beat.

Since Diamond's in the back of my head, I'd like to go on record and say I would love to hear her on more boom bap, Apollo Brown -type beats. Her content is worth it. She's a G. And I definitely have the sauce to take her places musically. But I wish her well in all that she does.

So far, the donations have gone to drum packs, patch/AUX cords, new headphones, new speaker, of course mp3s, as well as food for everyday. I thank you. I will have enough to pay rent this month, and my benefits are set to kick in next month. Let's just give it to God, y'all...

The wifi is out in my building. Should be back by next week.

Love.

#rebirth

StarChaser Money

Just filling in the blanks at this point...

I have received the donations. Thank you very much. I bought SEVERAL drum packs, got a Pro account on SoundCloud, ...I re-upped my subscription to this #topsecret record pool from which I get my samples from. Donated to Wiki (I use them a lot). Paid a few debts off. I haven't bought any weed yet. Maybe when I make a few more dollars. Still, I held y'all down, ya know? 6-8 projects on SoundCloud. Guaranteed for a YEAR.

I am so thankful for my StarChasers. EVERYONE, from Dalvyn to Drew to Mike Dee. I ask that y'all bear with me, because this is a very confusing time for me. I'm comfortable, far from home, but I'm far from home so I'm uncomfortable. Yes, there are LOTS of celebs out here. And they likely know who I am on a DEEP level. But GETTING to them is a bitch. And the money it takes to get to them could EASILY go right back into my own career/endeavors.

(originally written on 5/18/25; continued today)

Look at God! I got a new phone in time for an interview with DPSS, and DPSS is on top of my benefits situation. It's gonna be rough for about 2 more weeks, but everything is in alignment. Thank you, God. You are a wonder of amazement.

While on the subject of God, EVEN GOD RECOGNIZES ME AS A SIX! WHY CAN'T YOU?! Damn, Gio and Dil! The fuck y'all niggas be doin' when I'm not around?! lol

...and I already know about Jack. The LONG way.

Still and all, Im feeling blessed. OH! I also decided that my next instrument will be an Akai MPK 61-key. For me to do what I'm about to do, that is the necessary tool. Akais don't break easily. Wait until they get into turntables!

Wishful thinking.

The livestreams have been getting easier to manage! I appreciate you, StarChasers, for not triggering me as much as you did in the past. The love is real, over here...

#reborn

When Trump gets an apology.

I, Charles Hamilton, Jr., would like to formally apologize to President Donald J. Trump for calling him a "bitch ass nigga" when I found out my benefits got cut. It is completely in the hands of The State of California.

I have no issues with the state, and I want no smoke with the city (LA). All I know is, I submitted the proper documents A WHOLE MONTH before it was due (upon getting notice that they were due). The website reflects that I submitted it, and that it has to be processed by the system.

If The State of... is watching/reading this blog, let me know so I can upload the screenshots from the BenefitsCal website.

I have NO income coming in, and donations are being saved until I have enough to purchase the items I need. NOT having benefits mean I have to tap into that money to get survival tools.

You see where/how I live, every Friday. Humble living. I'm not balling. But The State of California didn't have to do me like that.

At the same time, a BIG change may be coming.

Word to Journee Smollette (hey, Hunter!).

Aftermath, what's pockin'?!

#reborn

About your donations...

Though I've received them all, my food stamps are still cut. I been calling DPSS all morning. Eventually I'll have to go there. But I already did what I had to do, ONLINE, AND THE WEBSITE SHOWS THAT.

This could be a sign for me to dead ass go out and get a record deal. I can't rely on the government to provide for me. My StarChasers (y'all) have been MORE than a blessing. The only thing I can do is knock y'alls socks off with the music.

Im workinonit.

One time faya mind.

"You ain't even impressed no more; you used to it..."

Innerdrive

Shout out to my man Smarty. One of the FEW industry people I can trust/count on. We linked this past weekend. Chopped it up, brainstormed... I forgot how much of a genius he is. He dead takes his time to talk. It can frustrate, if you don't know better.

We may get into that point in a few.

But it was with Smarty that I came to the following conclusion:

I'm a recording artist!

Recording artists don't perform. Think The-Dream, PinkPantheress, Crooked I, Hi-Tek... they MAY take the stage, but their sole purpose is to inspire performing artists (almost to the very performance factor) and make, what can be blasphemously considered, #drafts.

I know HOW to perform. I have performed everywhere from The Apollo Theatre to Glastonbury. The meds/diagnosis make it VERY difficult to be around big crowds. I first noticed this during my 2015 SOBs set. Not only was I not confident in the music I was performing, I didn't like what I had on (which made me feel like I looked like a poser) and I couldn't see a SOUL in the audience.

All I wanted to do was go to my home studio and OD on the mic/ProTools.

I would say, since... 2018, I been OBSESSED with JUST recording/producing/mixing. I did a pop-up performance with Enjetic in 2019, and sold out a show in Baltimore w/ DJ Nick. It's just honestly not as thrilling as it used to be. And yeah, the anxiety is real.

For some reason, when I DO receive love, it makes me angry and violent. I've done my homework (both online, library and within), and I see that such is a formality of heroin.
The more I reflect on that drug, the less I like myself.

And the meds FORCE me to LOVE myself.

Big difference between LIKE and LOVE.

And chemicals determine/tilt the balance of such.

For me, at least.

DEFINITELY blogging to 2Pac right now.

Wow.

This is what journalism is supposed to be.

Alas, the song is only 4 minutes long.

And fame is 15.

So you only really get 11 minutes, when you're a performing artist.

The better you perform, the longer each minute seems.

But would those minutes even matter without...

The Recording Artist?

Back to Smarty.

I learned a lot about self-expression through watching him. He keeps you engaged, while he's taking his time to give you 100% pure knowledge and wisdom. Expect to hear more about Smarty Arty on this blog.

And his partner, Jen!

I met Jen (and Smarty) at Record Plant Studios in LA. They were and are some of the most genuine, wise, intelligent... BEAUTIFUL people I met in this business.

Listen. No one's hands are clean in the business. Not even mine. But the filth on the palms of me, Smarty and Jen come from the skulls we've crushed to get TRUE equality in the business. BEYOND race. ABOVE class. OUTSIDE of sex.

RO
FESS
ION
AL
ISM!!!

More to come. But my purpose is to be #TheUltimateRecordingArtist. If I am rewarded to be such, I can reward The Last of the StarChasers with my presence, live.

"...quite like I did it!"

Trump and A Bowl

Before I write this blog entry, let me hit this bowl...

(hits bowl)

Aight. I'm right now.

So look. I went on the Benefitscal website, and they gave me the paperwork to REAPPLY. Instead of beefing with them on the phone (my phone is broke) or sending a funky email, I simply complied.

There should be NO QUESTION as to my growth in mental health. I'm learning what battles to fight, who's an ally, and to STAY AWAY FROM THE ENEMY.

The tricky part about STAYING AWAY FROM THE ENEMY is, much of life's design HINGES on how much I love 3 others.

You know who they are.

Even if you never heard of 'em.

Shit, one of 'em is making my life HELL because he's so famous.

Not his fault. He's just chosen to be so.

I appreciate all the donations. And it's all going towards making the music greater than before. I know you care. I'm selfish to believe you're only here for the music. And if you ARE here for the person, pardon my selfishness in insisting you listen. But if in fact you are here for the music, thanks to the podcast, I know what can make a CH project classic.

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Me and my trauma bear, Carothers, circa 2018.

Speaking of new music, I hereby announce that the Sonic the Hamilton series is CLOSED. The final project was "StH: American Paradox". Since then, my music (no matter the title) was from the perspective of Dr. Julian "Robotnik" Kintobor, aka Eggman. I find that I am able to express my intelligence more and better as Dr. Robotnik.

Sonic is a jack of all trades, but DEFINITELY an athlete.

But SEGA fans, fret not!

I am working on a new series of music that explores the lore of SEGA, OUTSIDE OF Sonic the Hedgehog/Hamilton.

It's only a matter of time...

(oh... thanks for giving me another shot, Trump; hopefully the condescending tone in my "thanks" will let you know that a personal conversation is due...)

Truck Fump

At this point, my StarChasers are all I got.

I do plan to get the SP404.

As well as a guitar, bass and performance keyboard.

In the meantime, Trump is making it difficult for me to get my benefits. As in, I no longer receive them. The reason? I didn't "re-certify" in time. The deadline was April 30th. I submitted it (the recertification) on April 30th.

Niggas is being assholes, really.

Not about the GoFundMe, tho...

I plan to get my own Stratocaster (Fender), a drum machine (Roland SP-404), some posters, clothes, and with whatever is left, get some food.

Thank you, #CreaturesOfTheNight.

And thank you in advanced for donating.

#reborn

Out From Under

I promise you. I'm trying to lay low until I have the nuke loaded and ready to launch. But life be life-in', b. It's hard to not blog. Especially when it is dead ass AN OCCUPATION. Like, I'm a certified, legitimate blogger.

Best Blogger Alive

Last Blogger Standing

On LinkedIn, I'm registered as a BLOGGER.

In fact, I use "blogger" as an official title to describe who I am (with my fingertips).

Pianist, beatmaker, composer, producer, EXECUTIVE producer, session musician (drums, guitar, bass), DJ, as well as journalist and advocate/ambassador for/representative of The Green Party (as you can see, weed is legal in the big cities).

A lot of stuff is going on in my life. Trump is responsible for some of this shit. I just can't bring myself to hate him. He's really just a confused New Yorker in The White House. With that said, this bitch ass nigga cut my food stamps! AND NOW I GOTTA GET A JOB!!!

I AM A FULL TIME MUSICIAN!!!!!, with bad anxiety and a schizophrenia diagnosis. I will do HORRIBLE in the workplace. Not only that, my "normal" self is when I'm in a controlled environment making music. I'm not gonna be able to make as much music if I get a job. To add, I'm a public figure. Any "StarChaser" seeing me at a 9-5 would make fun, and I'd be viral for the wrong reason.

Fuck that shit.

Now. As a musician, I am able to rock with any instrument (provided I get the time to figure it out, eg. the harp and violin, of which I can play). And my musicianship enhances my sampling. But I'm only used to software when it comes to sampling. I HAVE used an MPC. 500, 2000XL, 3000, ...and I have an MPK controller.

But I want to take it to the next level.

Instead of getting a new turntable deck, I'm gonna jump RIGHT in The In-Crowd (I see you Gths!!!!!!!!!!) and pick up a Roland SP-404. A lot of my favorite undergrounders use it, and I can see me making some shit with it. So, stay tuned!!!

I would get the Korg K-oss, but that's TOO next level.