Granted I'm articulate, this post will just be strung beads of emotion.
Year 10 without Mom. She was one of the most ... Nah... She was THEE most loving person I knew. I often found myself trying to find her type of love in others. Needless to say, it left a void that her death only amplified. Kids, you only get one mother. In the hood, Dad isn't always present and Mom doesn't always have class. Mom raised me right. And though the distance was and is great, Dad is goals.
After 4 attempts last night, we finally got a full 9-out-of-12 hour set. Thank you to those who stuck around. I do have a lot of ideas for drops this year. Jr. might come back, TTMH has a new mix folder (from which you can find the 4-part NYE '26 set)... all kind of ideas (Common/PR). I just have to worry about self-sufficiency. I can't keep giving high-level music for free, as if #TheProcess isn't in the marketplace.
Or can I?
I'm establishing a system for my music that is only verified and backed (technically) by StarChasers. Basically, I see which records catch a buzz amongst my people (outside of personal favorites and beats) and take note for a future retail release. Still, one thing Napster showed is if the listener is satisfied with music upon free download, they are "40%" likely to BUY it.
I believe in you, StarChasers!
This damn blow-up doll of a love life I have, b. Baddie and I are drifting even further apart, and ... Yo. For the first time in a long while, I don't have a woman in my life. I literally put and am putting music first (to tap back into earlier in this post). Except, it's more than the production/rhyme/song, etc. I'm looking at EVERYTHING. Yes I have a team, but it's impressive when you can bring action items to the table. So I guess this lone-time is making me a greater beast overall.
I'm just lonely.
I mean, bro. I'm not even looking at women the same way (pause). The better they look, the more they cost. This ain't high school. I can't just play Usher on the piano and get affection. I gotta wear the freshest shit, smell good, need maintained hair... And that's BEFORE the word "rapper" gets tossed around. It is possible that LA is leaving me jaded. Said with respect to this beautiful city and state.
Let her cook!
Look forward to this year, StarChasers. The gears are set to make it one for the books. I'll be honest, 2008-10 put a bad taste in my mouth (as far as industry politics and my "peers"). So maybe that's the fear of fame. But now, the personal side is SITUATED. Sha and I are good, H2 and I are good, Dre (Lenox) is holdin me down, Leroy is back in the picture... I feel unstoppable.
All I gotta do is execute.
That's the key word (for me at least) for 2026. EXECUTE. EXECUTION. DOOIT, nigga.
#CH
