I do not claim allegiance to either of the primary street gangs. I am also not affiliated with Latin, Caribbean and White gangs. Still, I maintain a persona (if you will) that enables me to converse with either side, without the fear of treason. I know when I'm getting in too deep.
Though I do NOT align myself with Bloods, Crips, etc. ..., I have ties to them. On a deep scale. Like, I know your OGs. I also know that there is a HUGE shakedown going on, and some of my closest friends are facing A LOT of time in prison. I feel for them. But I would be foolish to involve myself. All I can do is hope my prayers get heard.
I probably should've saved this post for the Columbine Gang blog. Still, I just want the streets to know I love it, despite how low I lay and how peaceful I carry myself. However, this does not mean you can walk all over me. I show the utmost respect to the streets. So if I open my door to you, I expect the same.
Neither of us want to get violent over any issue.
In the meantime, I pray for all the Gs and OGs, in every hood. We have more in common than one would think...
Let me start by saying, I'm not mad at the review. Stik and Mike made good points about the highs and lows about the album. What I CAN say is, those who were involved for The PINK Lavalamp weren't around fr The Black ..., but they were still addressed.
I feel that "One Night Affair" was me stepping out of my comfort zone and actually trying to song. If you don't like the singing, that's on you. Technically on me, but I didn't hit a bad note. But yes. The lady of whom "Come Back To You" and "Latte" were about is now the lead love interest, with Toya being the mistress to MUSIC. There are a lot of references to my 2012 music, as well as foreshadowing and choosing an alternate ending for what has become known as #TheLavalampEra.
Making this album was fairly easy. I used beats from the folder I made TPL (Pink) with. It was a matter of continuing the story, FOR the perspective of the woman who was in my life AT THAT TIME (the making of The BLACK Lavalamp). It's all pretty confusing, but listen to both Pink and Black and I'm sure you'll be able to piece it all together.
Bring it right back, while I drink a nightcap. I'm a genius. Like that. Too high to see it? My fault. My bad. My apology. Time to body me. They fear what they don't understand. Take you here or there. I'm under your hands. Like a handcuff. Around the back. Ball a fist. You can't do shit. Stand up. Down is that. I be that. I'm on some real shit. A problem to deal with. My honesty, killing. I gotta love it. I gotta hate it. Because it's taking lives, and I'm above the pavement.
(hook)
I can't complain.
I feel this way.
Goin' against the grain?
Feel this way:
I need a reprise.
I need the darkness to rise to my face.
I need a reprise, y'all
(verse 2)
I smoke enough for everybody. "Open up! I got a shottie!" Knock-knock. Yeah. YOU, Thottie. I'm waiting for you to touch my body. Make me feel special with the love that I been giving, especially because I been giving it so freely. Women wanna be me. Look at these short hair chicks tryna stare at the dick. I don't care for shit. Share some chips. My therapist, pissed. I don't need her but I love her. Not a skeezer, but I'll fuck her. One of these days, she'll see me as a brother that needs to be a lover to she. Until then, I'm a client. It don't take much but real thoughts to get inside of it.
(hook)
I can't complain.
I feel this way.
Goin' against the grain?
Feel this way:
I need a reprise.
I need the darkness to rise to my face.
I need a reprise, y'all
(verse 3)
Socially, I'm a mixture of Rosa Parks and Owen Hart. Flow from the heart. Flow is sharp. Slit your wrist with it. Mind your business, kid. Still I'm so sick with it. Anybody got a problem with me? Let me know now. 'Cause it goes down. Every round that I go. And I don't ever go around, so... I throw my weight around, though. Get down. It's The Down Show. Those that are depressed are deep in the black. Realize the reason that the creature is back, is saving YOU. And keeping the black to myself. That oughta help. If not, I died in the name of Hip-Hop. I got it. The name of Hip Hop is shot!
“Love has never been a popular movement. And no one's ever wanted, really, to be free. The world is held together, really it is held together, by the love and the passion of a very few people. Otherwise, of course, you can despair. Walk down the street of any city, any afternoon, and look around you. What you've got to remember is what you're looking at is also you. Everyone you're looking at is also you. You could be that person. You could be that monster, you could be that cop. And you have to decide, in yourself, not to be.”
Wise words, of which I concur with. Love is never easy to achieve, no less to share.
Sometimes I embark on magical journeys, and don't tell the listener/reader what's going on. Sometimes I question magic, because I'm making it happen. In either event, this blog post is me treating my MacBook like a Ouija Board (like I did for the song folder "Ouija Rock"), and allowing the words to just flow right through me.
Lately, I've been binging on Halo (DJH2) beats. We compliment each other's styles PERFECTLY. Some days I wanna rave, some days I wanna be a homebody. I already recorded a Mastery tape using H2 beats (coming soon). And we share a particular technique on the turntables. The difference is, I credit him on opening my mind... and keeping it open.
I met Halo not too long after Dilla passed. I was hard on him when I first heard him, but over time (and with his "Beta Future" beat), I realized that he would be a necessary member of our (me, Sciryl and Kesed's) team. We're very close, and we can thank the power of music for uniting and reuniting us.
I met some cool cats while out here. Josh Pa$tel from the 2nd halfway house, Young Chip from 649, Richie Valley from ...The Valley (CA), ...a lot of driven and talented individuals who respect the craft. I won't lie, with this being year 20, I'm not in a rush to make new music. You guys have A LOT of catching up to do. And on an ironically hilarious note, I have sampled from EVERY album in my collection. It could be time for original production.
As reported earlier, I will be live with DJ Enjetic every Friday on The DJ Enjetic Show. Click here to subscribe. But yeah. I look forward to it. Real talk, good vibes, good friends, wisdom.
I just wanted to get some yes's and no's from my MacBook Ouija Board. I have the answers I need.
I didn't find out about this TinyDesk until this evening. And I am sooooo proud of Miss Aja-Monet. You may have first heard of her on "This Perfect Life", as she was the poet at the end of "Rosado". Well, I've known her almost 20 years now. I met her the same day I met Kesed and Sciryl. WAIT! It's 20 years THIS SUMMER!!! WOW!
I'm touched by this video, because she performed the piece she spit on "Rosado". Just depends on which ear you were listening with. Literally.
There's been word about it, both from me and other eyewitnesses, but I'm a bit self-conscious about music made between 2012-2014. There was a lot of venom spewed, in EVERYTHING ABOUT THE MUSIC. From the mix, to the MIC CHOICE, to BEAT/SAMPLE CHOICE, ...rhyme schemes, choice of particular words... it was all ugly. And aimed "at a few minds".
Music was my weapon. I didn't have a gun, neighborhood stores wouldn't sell me sharp objects... all I had was my talent and the mic. So if anything, be proud of the strength I showed. Also, be happy that I DIDN'T commit the crime I was going to, because I would've removed myself from reality permanently.
You'll be happy to know that any and all beef I had in Harlem (to my knowledge) is dead. Meaning, it's all peace in my neck of the woods. I even deaded my beef with Demevolist. I just harbor the responsibility of what might've gone wrong and prepare my future that way.
I don't want to send subliminal jabs at anyone anymore. Takes up too much creative energy. Alas, I don't have the mental patience to write anymore. In fact, I do and say so much with my blog that it's a wonder why people just don't reference it as a CH written... lol I guess I got y'all spoiled.
So yeah. No more venom. And I do and will blush at my ears' first sight of my 2012-14 music.
You often hear me talk about going through cycles. Or, often in you hearing me talk, you notice a cycle. A trend, if you will. One day, I'm gun-ho about production. Next, I'm super into bars. Lately, I've been manic on the turntables. In addition, I also do a bit of graphic design. AI kind of makes it easier.
But yeah. I'm going through a cycle. I know I put out a lot of work and have some stuff still unreleased. But EVERYONE is saying go for the buck this time. I tried that with "New York Raining". It never works out in my favor. Still, people are telling me to capitalize on my work. As a note, we're still trying to get #TheHamiltonizationProcess on streaming, but it's not looking good. Hopefully, there won't be a digital revolution to try to remove me from The Internet. Otherwise, you can still get the music from my website (thanks Reg!).
Back to the cycle. Being that this is my 20th year in music ("From the Desk Of..." was released June 2005!), I'm taking note of all of what I said, in music and in other media. It's safe to say that I am misunderstood to a select few, and those that do understand me want me to do better for myself.
Still love.
From the sounds of things, StarChasers are gravitating closer to Xarles than King Charles. Hey, as long as you enjoy the music.
Had dope listening sessions with CYoung and Black the Beast over the weekend. All of us are growing in our respective crafts. And each demand respect in the subject of our crafts. I know I've said off the wall shit, but... in almost 40 years, none of the shit I've said has been false. In fact, folks hope it dies down and goes away. But I have never capped. There's no benefit in it. In fact, I'll go so far as to say that Rihanna HERSELF would tell you her involvement in my life. But who benefits from it? Where is she now? Who is she with? Two different, "new" worlds, in front of a spotlight bloodthirsty to take me down.
Yes, an STD can significantly affect a person's mood, often leading to feelings of anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, shame, and embarrassment due to the stigma associated with having an STD, the worry about potential health consequences, and the stress of having to inform partners about their diagnosis; making it important to seek mental health support if diagnosed with an STD.
Key points about how STDs can affect mood:
Psychological impact:
The social stigma around STDs can cause individuals to feel ashamed, isolated, and judged by others, leading to lowered self-worth and depression.
Anxiety and worry:
Fear of transmitting the infection to partners, potential health complications, and the uncertainty of treatment can trigger anxiety.
Relationship challenges:
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Impact on self-perception:
A diagnosis of an STD can negatively impact how someone views their own sexual health and attractiveness.
Protect youfself, if you're gonna fuck around. Lol fuck around and find out. lol damn I love that phrase.
I see you Miss (and Little Miss) Palmer!!! lol hope all is well.
I haven't been sending out "Happy New Year!" texts, and it isn't out of lack of love for whomever feels jaded. I am literally gifting myself time to rebuild. This, after INTENSE work hours and output. Output isn't always the record-to-release ratio.
I learned so much about myself in my healing time. I also shed certain aspects of myself. I see that I am easily influenced by... well, vibration! I must vibrate high and sit low.
I feel like my famous baby mamas are preparing me for co-existence with their famous asses (lol) and our famously complex children. All that can happen is, BOTH ...damn, ALL FOUR sides of our family... will get along. The goal is peace. The Devil is psychosis.
So I spoke with Stik Braxton. We exchanged numbers, all is love. Admittedly, I'm closer to Mike than Stik. Probably because I spoke to Mike more often, and likely because he is a fellow MC/lyricist. But I spoke to Mike (since speaking to Stik and writing the 2 blog posts). I can say that though I disagreed with the review, I didn't say anything to burn the bridge between us in my review. And Mike saw this and somewhat applauded it.
There is a way of disagreeing without making it a thing of war.
Words hurt. And when used without discretion, they can injure deeply. They know I'm sensitive about my work, but they also hold me to a VERY high standard. Won't lie, I like that. I've made MANY projects since the inception of this podcast, and I've taken notes about what they do and don't like. I can see that they like they simple yet soulful approach, and they are turned off by the complex, rock star approach. I can use this to make my music better, or I can feel like they're hating and keep going left.
I hope you feel me, Baddie. Because you're beautiful.
(verse 1)
I've been workin'! I've been certainly workin'! Workin' to be a certain star. For certain a star, but not certain of my stardom. Dumb as a star. Because I'm not certain. But there's about 8 reasons why I'm not flirtin' with anybody. I'm trying to be certain. Perfectly. Imperfect. My perfection blurting AT ME! Unhappy! (her) "What are you gettin' at, Daddy? Get the money!" (me) "How about I create the money!" (her) "How about you stay away from me, you creating bastard! You end up locked up and fucked up because of your mind, I'm not the problem!And I walk away!" So I stay away from the dime. And make time.
(chorus)
So much for falling in love.
I'm just chasing the high.
Who's into falling in love? The end is nigh.
Who's into falling in love? Feel me? Good-bye!
(verse 2)
Big Boss Man! Ted DiBiase got enough dough to hold me down, but I got enough flow and sound to hold him down to the ground. Like, "Freeze! Where you get the money from, dummy? Not from love... oh no! You got some love from The Gotham Bug? You got love for The Gotham Bug?" Who got love for the Gotham Bug? Is it the pot I dug? You got love for the pot? You got love for the Gotham Doug? (Doug Morris laughs and says) "A-ha! You know you got A LOT of love from me!" Love cums money when you love the root of the tree... but who is he? Who are you to me? Just another tool with jewelry. You gettin' lost!
(chorus)
So much for falling in love.
I'm just chasing the high.
Who's into falling in love? The end is nigh.
Who's into falling in love? Feel me? Good-bye!
(verse 3) Now it's just you and I. Walking through the bluest sky... on the ground. Blue on the ground. The white of the cloud, on the ground. We walking around, nothing profound to see. But pain profound to feel. And I found your heel! I'm on the back of your heel, trying to heal from the freezing tundra outside. The thunder wondering why I doubt my mind at times. I lost my mind, but I'm beside you. Behind you. Losing my mind, trying to guide. Are you losing your mind while you're trying to define me? Do you find me grimey? Do you understand me, mami? Papi and Pedro! Oh my God! What do I need to know? Then say so, while I wave below. With major dough.
(chorus) So much for falling in love.
I'm just chasing the high.
Who's into falling in love?
The end is nigh.
Who's into falling in love?
Feel me?
Good-bye!
Notes: I was rapping while reading Tarot (for this song).
StarBaddie witnessed me create an entire crystal mansion while we were on a highway together. This, before I got arrested. Basically, CREATING is illegal.
As you read the lyrics, ask questions. Email me. charleshamiltonreturns@gmail.com
I felt some kinda way about the review of "Electronic Christmas", so I hit up Stik Braxton. Long story short, just because it got a Robotnik rating doesn't mean it's a bad project. It's just unlikely that they will listen to it on their OWN time in the future. I can respect that. There's just particular details that make this album more listenable than... really, anything else out.
Still waiting to hear from Mike. Who said I sound like an emo Ja Rule... lol I'll get his ass for that. Pause.
but yeah. I don't think they're out to GET me with these reviews. Maybe they are trying to show me something about my very art. I can learn from them, ya know?
^ ^ ^ Normally, I would just post an episode of StarChaser Central Podcast and let anyone dissect what's being said. And generally, whether good or bad review, I accept the review and use it to improve myself. Stik and Mike are good people and their opinion is to be trusted.
However, I can't accept this review.
ElecXmas got a Robotnik rating, which is the lowest rating you can give a project (according to the SCCP rubric).
The details aren't given. I sampled Curtis Mayfield's "Roots" album, as well as a few Depesche Mode songs. It was the 3rd part of a series where I bear my soul in Elektro, for the sake of saving Hip-Hop. The whole album was filmed by StarBaddie, of whom most of the love songs were about. I was STILL a part of the system, as I was being held at a halfway house. Yes, StarChasers paid for the album.
Mike Jackson said he didn't like that I exhausted "Gothic Bug", "Gotham Bug", "Gotham Doug" and "Gothic Doug" (from "Gettin' the It"). Well, Doug Morris is a HIGH ranking executive in the music business. He also happens to love my music. We ALSO have a mutual friend, in Jimmy Iovine.
Stik wasn't a fan of the singing on the album. To be expected, really. You either sing every note with passion or get someone else to do it. I just feel like they OVER-listened to it, finding whatever flaws they can to detract from the album. It's like this... NO ONE MAKES THE MUSIC I MAKE. And if they do, it's AFTER THEY HEARD THE MUSIC I MAKE. I think the novelty factor is what they're forgetting about. Key word: novelty.
Like Disco Duck.
It's not even a weed or liquor thing at this point. HAVE FUN, when you listen to my music. I'm not DoeChii. The effort you see isn't visual. All musical.
But then again, when is too much not enough?
We'll find out on the next episode of StarChaser Central Podcast.
And Stik and Mike, don't take my response to y'all video as some kind of hate. I love you guys. I just know more about the music than I'm alluding to. I want to SEE what you guys have to say about the music, before I SAY what there is to see.
