The Bipolar Sunshine front cover

A little magic goes a long way.

Still, believe what you will about the cover.

#reborn

 

The Psy ins Aftermath

 ...is shade over Gs.

As you/we all know, I have a VERY tight bond with Jimmy I., Dr. Dre, Eminem, 50 Cent and, more recently, Kendrick Lamar. I adore these brothers, and I know the feeling is mutual. It seems, however, that the closer we get, the more we get rifted apart. I'm working on MY end to not be the catalyst for an "awkward" fall out. I think the issue is, we ALL took the righteous path, despite our carnal (at times) material, and our fortitude can't "stand the reign".

Whatever the case may be, Kendrick knows how to get in touch with me. Literally. I won't say I spoke to the man on the phone (or whatever), but I can say that he is reaching out through The Netherworld. 

The world that all music and video lives in.
Check Highlander.

Love you, Dre!

Love you, Em!

Love you, Fif!

Love you, Dot!

Love you, Jimmy. 
(struggles to get out of chair to give a hug)

Sometimes I question why I didn't take pictures with the guys (50, Dre, Em, Jimmy...). Then I remember that Kendrick was FIRST seen with me. So we bond through him, I guess...

I'm on a downer, but not all the way.

See you soon.

#reborn

3rd Eye Magic, live

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Ain't it amazin'?
3rd Eye Magic has been in effect for 10 years now!, and we've only performed together ONCE.

Check out that Sway interview. That's the FIRST AND ONLY TIME we've performed together.

I'm of the mind to say we should leave it there! I know CYoung is hungry (af), so I might have to come out of my shell for a lil spotdate tour. 

I rode public transportation to a slightly unfamiliar territory today! By myself! My anxiety about being in South Central is on TILT. They show love, but... I've said and done some greasy things. I don't know who I hurt, where, and/or who knows who. Still, I got what I needed done and brought my ass back home.

lol this is the perfect karma for my 2008 antics. As few and far between as they are.

Still, (now I remember what I was writing... lol...) I gotta find a way to be UP to the task of performing every night. Maybe I'll go back on my Gatorade/StarbucksFrapp diet.

Just thoughts.

Expect a blog barrage in the near future. I have A LOT to write about.

love.

#reborn

Heart chatter

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This is Mellissa Musique, one of my background vocalists for "New York Raining" when I was on tour. We got EXTREMELY close (no sex, y'all), to the point where she sang at my mother's funeral. We haven't really spoke much since then (2016-beyond), but music always brings together the prodigal.

She KILLED "What You Won't Do For Love" (B. Caldwell), and I just wanted to give her some roses on my blog. She's an AMAZING vocalist that can adapt to any (musical) climate.

Miss Mellissa, y'all!!!!!!

#reborn

StarChaser Family Matters

We've been on this ride for just about 18 years (2008 was my debut, 2006 was my first album). Those that I know personally, I know well, as well as they know me. I think I'm closest to Andrew Howe, Chris Rivera is almost like my manager, and ...I mean, there are MANY more.

Right now, I'm on the phone with StarChaser Chris Baker. Nothing too deep, just reflecting on how we've grown. He's got a daughter. SMART as can be. I don't know what advice to give him, because I always had a dual, incest-based relationship with my (unborn) daughters. 

With all that I have gone through in the last 4-5 years, incest has become a thing of the past. I want my daughter to love WHOLEHEARTEDLY, not just have a strange, sexual desire for her daddy. Unless daughters naturally desire their dads. Then I'm fucked. Because I just want to be the god-like figure in my daughter's life to... basically walk her into womanhood. From there, the choice is hers.

Too complicated, I see. And finding a mother who would be cool with it is like finding a needle in a haystack.

That's probably why Simone (Marshall) and Sasheer are keeping my daughters away from me.

Look. I'm not a monster. And I'm not talking about raping (or r-word-ing) my daughter(s). I'm ...what I'm talking about is a deeply rooted secret in The Hamilton Family. One of which can, upon talking about it, rip The Hamilton Family apart. I probably should've kept my mouth shut.

But it's a Hamilton Thing.

I often think about my last name's lineage. I may be a product of Alexander Hamilton sleeping with slaves. I would be offended if one of you rap niggas went there with it. I guess I gotta man up for it now. Still, The Hamilton name is DEEP in US politics and culture in general. I guess that's why Lin-Manuel made a whole musical about it. 

Year 20, y'all!
I'm takin' it easy!!!

#reborn

(re)Introducing CYoung

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So, CYoung (of 3rd Eye Magic/Blue Enigma) and I have been brainstorming on ways to get THE REAL to the masses. He's been dropping freestyles from his backyard, as well as making songs/music to my instrumentals. Today, I told him to drop a freestyle over Method Man's "Dangerous Ground" instrumental (produced by True Master). I told him to JUST GO, as soon as the beat drops. 

I can see that he had to compose himself, after apparently crashing out to the beat in his head. That's what I encourage. Crash out on beats MENTALLY, BEFORE you set yourself up to record. This saves you a lot of drama, and you may be surprised at what your brain is capable of doing.

So yeah. Watch the above IG clip. I'm proud of my man CYoung. He took direction, and executed it well.

All up-and-coming artists: the key word is EXECUTION. You can have a whole bunch of ideas... you could even jot them down. But without execution, it's just exhausted brain matter.

Fuckin DOOIT!!!!!!

#therebirth 

Go more dumb (Tinashe lyric)

Today's live was a success! It had to be for me to have an anxiety attack for me to log off. But yo... I can feel my brain turning into pudding. I REALLY should slow down. That said, the rush (Simone's moan, inserted here) of releasing music is undeniable.

I love to reach out to y'all through music.

I love when y'all holla back.

I just want to love and be loved, by the people who resonate with my music.

Listen. Just because I'm not reaching for your heart with my modern music doesn't mean I wasn't doing so with the past music. We all have grown. I can't put you in your high school years, when I'm barely conscious of my own (shouts to FDA and Bard, though Lehman and Rice been tappin in HEAVY). NONETHELESS, I take full responsibility for my StarChasers. I believe you guys can do ANYTHING you want, so long as the love for me (and my music) is at the forefront.

I know this to be true, because there are StarChasers in the armed forces who...

know what it is.

Keep in mind, God is in control of jail/prison.

You know Him. I ain't gotta repeat.

Sorry, Simone, if I put you out there to be exploited. I just want you to be free.

As far as Baddie Smollet, we're on good terms. I think she's unhappy with where here career (behind the scenes) is going, and that even though I try to make it better, I already scarred her for life. 

All she had to do was reveal to me who she is. Every time she tried, she always ended up Beyonce or Simone Marshall. I feel her pain. 

Sorry, Baddie Bellz!

I hope you guys are enjoying the Dr. Hamilton collection on SoundCloud, yeah. Hard work, determination, motivation... all there, y'all.

I'ma hit this bowl and take a nap.

My brain is on soup mode.

Columbine Gang, holla atchya scholar!

Love to my loves.

Bad depression bout rn... I'll be okay.  

Love y'all.

#reborn

LAte NYte blaCk -n- wYte

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New uniform unlocked.

I just may go to the library tomorrow after all!

I love The Internet.

God bless The Internet.

God, bless The Internet.

I love it here.

#reborn

 

Bloody Hell, Mate!

I proudly announce that THE WIFI IS BACK IN MY APARTMENT! Yes! You can expect a live session in the near future.

Also, I proudly announce that HchO and I are BACK in communication! Long story short, we lost sight of our bond. He is the ONLY man I have ever called Pops, outside of my own father. That's because he taught me to get up and FIGHT for mine. 

Politically, of course.

See, H knows I'm sensitive and that my music comes from a vulnerable place. His biggest fear was that I'd get in the game and isolate myself with music and weed. And that's exactly what I did. For the record, I wasn't on hard drugs during my Interscope era. I just bought A LOT of weed and used it to make Sonic the Hamiton, Intervention, and everything POST The Pink Lavalamp. 

It looks like I'm getting my unit back together! Pause, of course.

SO......

SPECIAL shouts to Sha-leik, Yung Nate, Sciryl, Kesed, Halo, B/A (who I spoke to recently) and HchO. Y'all were there for the foundation, and there's more of yall to account for.

I got my niggas back, b.
Top of the world!!!

#rebirth

Bad-isms

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The above is the latest episode of StarCHaser Central Podcast. They reviewed "A Bad Representation of Ugly". Basically, it was a good review, and they want to see/hear more of this type. I definitely get it. I can make more projects like this. No problem.

But what does it mean to be a bad representation of Ugly?

"I'm so good, that I'm so bad. Guaranteed to be the greatest thing you ever had!"

I am aware of my beauty, as I am aware of my flaws. I'm not ugly BY FAR, but my flaws in my beauty comes from drugs, alcohol, and bad eating habits. Neverdamnmind, I'm going to the gym OFTEN. Sweat has become my best friend. But I am Egyptian-level beautiful. And my exes know the extent of my beauty. Will they speak on it? Probably not. 

I probably shouldn't put out there how bad I am. I already get treated all types of foul by people who want my attention/lust after my anger. I let all y'all niggas slide. I see your heart. I know your mind. I just don't want to play your game.

If you're trying to shoot your shot, know that I am saving my time, energy and everything else for and to music. So technically, I don't hear you (or give a fuck). No shade, no offense, I just gotta "see if you could truly be what I need...".

Even with being bad, I'm not afraid to get ugly. Whether on the mic or in a fight. I remember at the halfway house, this HUGE dude named Gino always wanted to wrestle niggas. One time, I was like "C'mon man! We about to smoke and chill! Stop tryna body niggas!" And he came over to me and tried to slam me. 

I stood my ground. Held my own. Refused to get slammed.

We dapped it up, smoked, and he never tried to wrestle smaller niggas again.

That's bad.

Y'all niggas ain't bad because you got money and guns. 

The niggas that gave you the money and the guns is bad.

That's ugly.

Shouts to Ice-T and my cousin Mar-Q.

Stay up, y'all.

Library treks

Today is my first day at the library near my building. BEAUTIFUL spot. I brought my MacBook and MPK to jam out in the environment here. It's awesome. Even found me a book I plan to take out... or read while I'm still here.

Made some beat packs for CYoung and Danny Casper. I'm taking my time before I work on another project. Dr. Hamilton was EXHAUSTING to record, and I think I might make another DrH project before the summer is out. Right now, Im focused on The Rebirth of Charles Hamilton and CH. 

So let's run it down:

Charles Hamilton, Jr. (pianist born in Cleveland)

Charles Hamilton (lyricist/producer from Harlem)

Sonic the Hamilton (musician from Mobius)

C. Hamilton (MC/producer from Queens)

Jr. (abstract DJ/producer from Long Island)

The Talented Mr. Hamilton (DJ/MC from The Bronx)

DOOM Williams (MC/Producer from California prison)

Hamilton, Charles (poet/producer from South Central LA)

King Charles (artist from The US)

Xarles (alien, making music in The US)

Dr. Hamilton (emotionless engineering from CH)

The Rebirth of Charles Hamilton (God-fearing musician from LA)

CH (the boy next door musician, known by everyone)

God Eddie-Lee (music from the perspective of God)

The-Devil (music from the perspective of Satan)

Charles Hamilton the Skywalker (Star Wars-themed hip-hop, not necessarily the concept)

Young Yoda (CH in Wu-Tang)

Darth the Hamilton (CH as a villain)

Yeah, I'm runnin up the mental health tab. Maybe Im too smart to be diagnosed, and that's what the problem is. The pills only make me more organized in my head. So I'm an even more formidable threat, because I'm obeying the law, med compliant, and there's no reason for me to lose my apartment. I'm in good standing with the rental people, and on the last inspection, there was no complaints about my apartment.

Fuck them niggas if they search my apartment when I'm not there. 

lol, but critically dead ass.

Baddie came over yesterday. I cooked for her, cleaned the apartment, got semi-fresh... I really did it up. She enjoyed the meal, we had a dope conversation... I catered to her. It brought me joy to do it. I know she's seeing other people (she has to; she's in Hollywood), and she tole me she doesn't mind if I see other people, but.... I really got used to her. She sets a fire in my heart that no one else does. 

Or is this the case with ALL females I come across?

I don't wanna bring up old flames and I want to keep my new interests anonymous (something I learned over the years), but... I think I'm ready to love again. I'm SEVERAL HUNDRED BEATS AND SONGS IN when it comes to this year. I don't HAVE to make another joint. Shit, with this being year 20, I don't have to do SHIT. But I love my StarChasers. The few, the proud, the starry-eyed. I guess I can hook yall up a few good times...

Stay tuned! I'm at the library!!!

#CH!

Romantic Psychosis

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I don't make music. Music makes me.

This picture means the world to me. 

I am in a home I earned, by losing respect.

So I'm going the extra mile musically to vindicate/redeem myself.

I learned SO MANY new tricks in sampling. And I'm applying my piano knowhow to production. Something I've been doing, but now it's more pronounced.

I'm a pianist. Not a keyboardist. So somethings I do musically may not make sense. But it's all there. From the Hamiltonian Theory to Dr. Dre's Inverted Chords. 

I love my MPK Mini. Had it for a minute, but now I'm really utilizing it. Depending on the money I make in the next few weeks, I may break down and get another turntable deck. I'll just be gentler with it. Nevertheless, the glitch in the Pioneer DDJ CAN be worked with. It just takes patience. 

I got nothin but time.

Bubt yeah. my MPK is a killer. And I'm only using Logic now. No Virtual DJ, no Fruity Loops, no GarageBand. ALL Logic. This thing is a killer as well. Once again, thank you Chris Rivera for hooking me up.

Shouts to Tamuz for hooking me up with some GREAT drums. Tamuz, Saucy Labs, a few others. It really lightens my workload to have these drums, and it makes it a bit more fun. I now dig for DRUMS, instead of records. And I have a connect who sends me some QUALITY records to flip. I don't take requests anymore, but I'm more confident in my record collection than EVER.

I just pray technology doesn't fuck me over.

It's late. I know y'all wanna sleep. I'm just up with a cup (of coffee) and I'm bringing you the real. Heat from the heart, cold ass thoughts.

~reborn~

 

A beneficial update.

So I finally spoke with the people at DPSS, and they are allowing me to continue my benefits. Apparently, they called me as my phone was out of commission (on the 16th of April). Whatever the technicality was, we have everything squared away (did my interview over the phone) and I will soon be able to go shopping for food.

I want to thank EVERY StarChaser that pitched in. From the usual suspects to the first time felons, no matter how big or small the donation. I was able to launch a ln Artist Pro account on SoundCloud with the donations, so now there's an easier outlet to play the music. I want to thank Chris Rivera (once again) for helping me orchestrate this fundraiser. I stop short of making him my manager, for reasons he got to witness FOR HIMSELF. Once again I'd like to thank Mike Dee Jackson and Stick Braxton for reviewing my music an keeping the lightning bug alive, if you will. 

Special shouts to Andrew Howe, Chris Baker, Dalvyn Ramirez, Tanya Wieman... all for the more personal support they show. Can't forget about Chimp1, Enjetic, CYoung, SKE, Spud... for collaboration and support as well. Of course, Sciryl, Sha-leik, Yung Nate, Kesed and Halo... my unit.

All the afformentioned, of whom have been very key in this trying time. P Dunner, Baddie, Dylan, ...my grandma and uncle, definitely. My Hamilton Aunties...

Love.

Bringing it back to better ways of enjoying my music, you might've read a cryptic tweet that read like:

The process that changed history.

On all DSPs July 4th, 2025.

#Hamiltonization 

#THP

(@leroybenros let's goooo!)

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Well, please be advised. The Hamiltonization Process hits streaming services on July 4th, 2025. It's been conference call after conference call, meeting after meeting, ... we're finally getting to it. Provided NOTHING comes up between now and 7/4/2025, get set to relive a moment in time/history.

I no longer have wifi in my apartment. The tech department is coming in a few days to see what was up. To be real, it was pirated. To be truthful, the building manager gave me the password. No slick shit, I just live one floor above the wifi hub. Whatever the issue is, I cannot go live. My phone data cannot handle YouTube live. In fact, writing blog entries in my phone is a killer. I may make time to go down to the DTLA Public Library. Who knows?

All I know is, I'm looking forward to the future. As black as it is...

HUGE shouts to Ellie Rizoa, who's SP404 game is NUTS (pause). Definitely been a pleasant challenge, keeping up with her

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Aight! Out for now. May return soon...

#reborn